+ A smALL pLAce cALLed heAven +

2005-07-15T21:52:00.000+08:00

aahahahaa.... i enjoy talking to those shorties. second in command hold intelligent talks with me. no choice. the third is too blurrrr. haha. but her brain is named maths.

Wai Ling.. EDDY is your middle name!! hoho.. Eddy current is probably named after you. =x

i am beginning to lose the momentum. oh no.

Momentum come back to me!
Back to how it used to be!
Without you i'm incomplete,
won't you please come backk..
to meeee~

haha tat was in tune to 911's song. they split already, long ago. but i'm still an ardent fan of theirs! keke

after Sunday i just know that everything will change. yeap. i am looking forward to it! But my dear friends! (in tune to mr tan teck hock's) don't blame me for any adverse effects that will take place after Sunday cos well, i admit i made it that way. wadeverrr.

convince me if you can. haha.

anyway my dear friends! this is the last entry i am making.

From this moment.. life has begun..

i officially announce this blog dead.

Time of death: 22:25:36

2005-07-12T20:43:00.000+08:00

i am loving it. my life. schooling and studying can be fun, i realised that! haha. and my class.. hmm. interesting ppl who give me luffter. hahaha!

asusual, the dwarfs are great peeps. i think we rawk. haha. bleah.... wadeeeeeever!

i am gonna apply for a passion card. hohoho.

todae is my break. i officially claimed it to be a break cos i am so darn tired already. sleeping late waking up early is definitely not healthy, please don't practise it! and wailing, please rest. you need it.

two weeks without pe. and next week is mock? haha.. no pe again. cool~

i am anticipating mock exams. ;p

2005-07-10T22:04:00.000+08:00

what does words mean? does it mean what it is supposed to mean? what if the person using the word has just used it in a wrong way? are words alive? don't u think they cause trouble and misunderstandings? to me, i don't care and i dun give it a hoot. if u understand me, u will understand what i am trying to get across and not misinteprete it. if you don't get what i mean, it just shows the level of understanding you have about me.

i am getting pissed. why don't you just shuddup and leave me alone? seriously i ain't interested in any shit you're gonna say to me. who knows. i might be labeled but again, i don't give a hoot. i can't even be bothered to explain to you, seriously. i mean, who are you to bother so much and control me?

So where is the passion when you need it the most?
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost.
Sometimes the system goes on the blink,
And the whole thing turns out wrong.
You might not make it back and you know.
And I don't need no carryin' on.

i had a BaD DaY.

2005-07-09T17:24:00.000+08:00

haaaa i am not in church when i am supposed to.. again. hate it.

haa a lot of thanks to second in command. lol. she has sent me some fabulous song! ;D

I'd do anything!! Just to hold you in my arms~ to try and make you laugh cuz somehow i can't put you in the past. I’d do anything!! Just to fall asleep with you~ will you remember me? cuz i know i won't forget you! :D

Better stand tall when they're calling you out
Don't bend don't break, baby don't back down
It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live when I'm alive
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said "I did it my way"
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life!

You know the lid's about to blow
When the Thunderbirds are go!!
Burning on, just like a match you strike te incinerate.

It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
There never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

now the speakers blasting and my sister's yelling at me to lower the volume. who cares?

2005-07-07T21:56:00.000+08:00

i am gonna revise physics bio and e math intensively! tats my main preparation for mock cos they're basically more hopeful compared to chem and a math. -.-

a lot of thanks to wailing and yanping!! haha.. they are my tutors. u see, they are better in their results, infact they are the top few in class. and i get to study with them! hohohoo.. wailing's good in her sciences esp her chemistry and yanping's good in her mathematics which i suck at! haha. yea~ and wailing always nags at me to study. cool. ;p

they each have a study group and they are like mother hen with many F9 chickens. *haha* and i am very fortunate, i get to study with two tutors, while i am one of the worst tutee. well, in a way they are fortunate and blessed to be able to study with me too! hahaha. *smirks*

lets hope i do better for my mock and even better for prelims and best when it comes to Os! it better be. -.-v <-- tats a stooopid smiley

2005-07-03T17:41:00.000+08:00

O levels so creepy near. and i'm so freakin' excited! haha. i am hoooked to doing tys. bleah.. esp physics! its long but fun. chemistry is so.. discouraging. i can't do a single question from the prelim paper Kong gave. not a single so far, from MCQ. Bio is cool, i somehow memorise as i do. haha. Math is still the same, fun and yet irritating when i can't do even after trying for N times. a math.. i dun wanna tok bout it. wanna study it but time is so pack..

read 7 habits of effective teens and learnt quite a bit from it. jus finished habit 2. and i have set my goals which i wun say wad, and also learnt that i get power to continue when i committ myself into doing it. jus got to stick to my plans and do it by hook or by crook i guess. its hard, definitely. haha..

i am feeling quite down. cos i wanna go somewhere but no one can go with me.

i feel like sleeping again. sometimes i lyk the feeling of melancholy. its not self pity, dun get me wrong.

after Os.. i anticipate. (;

2005-06-30T18:20:00.000+08:00

i'm dead! everyone is like so hardworking. qixiang lionel and vikram! they are starting to stay back in school to study le. goodness. i heard lionel studies til 7-8pm den go home. i feel the threat when i see them studying. well, i have been studying but seriously i aint concentrating hard. die ar si le. i got to start too. and i got to do well, thats for sure. i cant believe it if i get like below average, not to say fail. i wun tolerate!

When i was young and free and my imagination had no limits, i dreamed of changing the world;
As i grew older and wiser i realized that the world would not change.

And i decided to shorten my sights somewhat and change only my country.
But it too seemed immovable.

As i entered my twilight years, in one last desperate attempt, i sought to change only my family, those closest to me, but also they would have none of it.

And now here i lie on my death bed and realise (perhaps for the first time) that if only i'd changed myself first, then by example i may have influenced my family adn with their encouragement and support i may have bettered my country, and who knows i may have changed the world.

-Adapted from The 7 Habits of highly effective teens

2005-06-29T14:11:00.000+08:00

King Louise had been taken from his throne and imprisoned. His young son, the prince, was taken by those who dethroned the king. they though that in as much as the king's son was heir to the throne, if they could destroy him morally, he would never realise the great and grand destiny that life had bestowed upon him.
they took him to a community far away, and there they exposed the lad to every filthy and vile thing that life could offer. they exposed him to food and richness of which would quickly make him a slave to appetite. they used vile language around him constantly. they exposed him to lewd and lusting woman. they exposed him to dishonour and distrust. he was surrounded 24/7 by everything that could drag teh soul of a man as low as one could slip. for over six months he had this treatment, but not once did the young lad buckle under pressure. finally, after intensive temptation, they questioned him. why had he not submitted himsefl to these things, why had he not partaken? these things could provide pleasure, satisfy his lust, and were desirable; they were all his. the boy said, "I cannot do what you ask for i was born to be a king."

-Adapted from The 7 Habits of Highly Effective Teens
by Sean Covey

I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself, then make the change.
-By Siedah Garrett and Glen Ballard

2005-06-29T13:27:00.000+08:00

PONNERS RAWK

tired til i wanna cry...

but now i am satisfied! had a great sleep, so deep i felt wobbly when i woke up. Later got to mug again! really got to finish my homework today. if not i am such a failure already. I WILL.

saw my photo in leonard's comm shot page. i didnt appear much cos i was the photographer! (; except some of cos. like some self taken pics! haha. had fun at sentosa! i was rather burnt already in the pics if you can see... the pic with peishan was so ugly.

thanks to all of you who discouraged me to pon school. =p

2005-06-28T19:07:00.000+08:00

shoobeedoowabb and scooby snacks, met a fly ger and i can't relax. the only problem is she's a movie star, wow. my friends, they won't believe me, if they could only see me. at the risk of sounding cheesy, think i fell for the ger on tv.. i wish, wish for you on a falling star, wondering where you are. do i ever cross your mind in the warm sunshine. she's from the city of angels, Like Betty Davis, James Dean, and Gable, never know what she means to me, i fell for the ger who's on tv...

haha day 2 since school re-open. better i would say. i woke up late again, 0647. and i still sat on the toilet bowl in the toilet and rot til 7 and i rushed the hell outa it. nowadays i have never been able to hear my alarm clock ring, even when i set like 3 alarm clocks. therefore i just wake up according to my insticts. who cares anyway. :/

anybody has EXTRA PHYSICS TEXTBOOK please give me. i need one. mine's gone with the wind.

tml i get to go school at 8am cos school starts at 0815. i'm so darn happie man.

did i mention anything bout going to orchard alone? hhaa. well i went to orchard last saturday alone. walked there from church. wow. i felt great. i serously enjoy being alone. the best part was the journey towards orchard, the road from church to orchard road. it was great, i felt relaxed and i would say that is my greatest way of relieving stress. being alone does not mean being lonely. i cant agree more. (;
i was walking on orchard road and there was the fantastic 4 statues! haha. so funny, invisible man and stuff like that. i looked around me at the people and felt a feeling i can't describe. a nice feeling to walk alone amidst crowds i would say. i did not have to care about anybody, i just walked wherever i am pleased with. the best part was sticking myself in Books Kinokuniya. i spent like an hour or two there and i lurrve the feeling of being enveloped by books. read some books on photography and saw the pictures. they were great. some pictures say so much. picture speaks a thousand words...

i wonder what has gotten him so absorbed...

2005-06-27T18:48:00.000+08:00

the next time i go back to church i got to bring back my guit! i am craving for some guit-ing~

first day of school. one word --- disaster. 3 hours of a math and yes i was rotting. and its gonna be like that for every monday. and next week is youth day, thank God for that. i am feeling very sleepy even now.. but i got to start chionging later already. well. term 3 wadaya expect

and peishan arh, laosai and pangsai different. :p
pangsai=nothing wrong
laosai=something wrong

Breathe Easy by Blue is so nice even now. (: it reminds me of the days when we were still in Henderson because i remember this was my favourtite song then, the song i would blast in my earphone on the way to church, in church, after church and even when i am chatting online with church people. therefore when i listen to it again now, i feel nostalgic waves. hah, yeap.

Out of my mind, nothing makes sense anymore. i want you back in my life, thats all i'm breathing for. tell me why, oh won't you tell me why i can't dream yet another dream, without you lying next to me, there's no air. i can't breathe easy. i can't sleep at night til you're by my side.

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When you wish upon a star, makes no difference who you are. Anything your heart desires, will come to you.. if your heart is in your dreams, no request is too extreme. when you wish upon a star, as dreamers do...
faith is kind, she brings to those who love, that sweeet fulfillment of their secret longing...
like a bolt out of the blue, faith steps in and sees it through. when you wish upon a star, your dreams come true...

2005-06-26T20:30:00.000+08:00

todae is the second time i came home and reach yishun after service with the sky being bright. its been a year, so fast.

so many things have changed in just a year and seriously i dislike talking about the cliche-d changes like they were blah blah blah and now they blah blah blah. everbody knows it w/o you mentioning it. and no point going on and on bout it too. nobody else understands it except you & yourself anyway.

sand flies reli piss mi off.

i am waiting for my dinner while my whole family went out to eat cos my second sister's treating. i stayed home cos i wanna conserve energy for rushing through hw later. i don't hold hope of sleeping tonight. maybe just a wink. finish those disgusting assignments up and then knock out in school during classes tomorrow. don't wanna give a hoot bout it. and yes, school's starting. the living hell. hate it to bitss.

i am going to buy that cd. Jazz In e City yea.. it is cool, lurve it.

second cd's got to be ryan cabrera's Take It All Away. i love his guitar and his skills. he look so darn cool when he plays it, not exactly because he is good looking cos i tell ya i don't think he is. and i admire him cos he is a high school(or college i cant rmb) drop-out! i don't mind being a sec school drop-out, i mean a talented and successful drop-out. his songs are generally nice but i was concentrating more on the guitar at the background.

jazzie-jazzy-jazz-jazzzzzz.............

What A Wonderful World
by Eva Cassidy

I see trees of green, red roses too.
I see them bloom for me and you,
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world.

I see skies of blue and clouds of white.
The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night,
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world.

The colors of the rainbow, so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by,
I see friends shaking hands, saying, "How do you do?"
They're really saying, "I love you."

I hear babies cry, I watch them grow,
They'll learn much more, than I'll ever know.
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world.

Yes, I think to myself, what a wonderful world.
Oh yeah

2005-06-24T13:53:00.000+08:00

i've waited all my life, to cross this line, to the only thing that's true. so i will not hide, its time to try enything to be with you. all my life i've waited, this is true. i know when i go, i'll be on my way to you. a way thats true...

haha ryan cabrera rocks man. 40 kinds of sadness!

cant believe it. june is over. OVER. and i havent started those INTENSIVE sort of revision. forget it. jus continue flicking channels right peishan. i wonder whether you are flicking channels now.-.-

i bought a wallet! it says.."oh shit i'm dead. i'm like so dead can" guess i've been saying this quite often recently also. haha.. i wanted to buy one which says "school sux big time" but i decided not to. wailing bought "do i look like i freakin' care" quite cool huh?

i am peeling so grossly. bet no one peels as disgustingly as me. the skin looks like one from an elephant!! and the problem is it hurts you know. and its prikly against my shirt. weird. so i am wearing jacket even when i am at home. so that i dun become flaky. ya, tat red creature from happy tree frens? i think i am flaky. red and flakes of my dead skinn jus flies in flakes when i rub against my arm. arghhh.. er xin si le.

so i try to hold on to a time, when nothing mattered, and i cant explain what happened. and i cant erase the things that i've done.. no i cant.. how could this happen to me, i made my mistakes, got no where to run, the night goes on as i'm fading away, i'm sick of this life, i jus want to scream, how could this happen to me...

i dun care. i am not going to do my homework. and i am going to slack todae. yes. whatever you say i am going to slack this afternoon. this is the last afternoon i have to enjoy before school re-opens. and yes i'll slack.

this feeling is coming back. not the lazy feeling i am tokng bout. but THAT feeling. ya. i am not who i used to be anymore. i am different and i.. am feeling THAT way. dun understand right? of cos.. who are you to be able to understand me? only God and i know. wait, maybe i myself don't really know. so who are you, to know what i am feeling? HAH.. stop being so full of yourself and assume that you understand me. i hope you shuddup cos do i look like i freakin' care?

and yes to another you if i use you as a shield again, forgive me. haa. u know i am toking to you right

i think i am a schizo. you know.. schizophrenic. ya.

2005-06-22T23:30:00.000+08:00

woke up this morning feeling itchy. and to my horror i have transformed into a snake overnight. peeling like mad! hate it. patches of skinned skin how to face the world!?! lucky my face no problem. felt like scratching but i know tat if i do scratch, the skin underneathe will be raw and yucky so i exercised self control and pulled back the urge. hhaa. PEISHAn you arent alone.

SNAKEY-SNake-sNaKE

i want to be bored. but cant. cos everytym i do nth and try to slack a bit, my mind keeps ringing study study and study. or plan this plan that. oh man.. gimme a break. my holidays almost gone and homework is sitll not done, not to say revision! once school starts, Os will come in the blink of an eye. and then when i collect my results..i will sing..

I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

2005-06-21T18:02:00.000+08:00

haha PEISHAN, i can sense your eyes lingering on my entries and your presence even after u left my blog though you never tagggg.

and SAMANTHA, all you ever tell me these days are STUDY STUDY & STUDY.

hah yeapp... realised that our church ushers are so darn good. yea. youth alive is awesome! haha. i lyk them personally but i think they a bit kelian la. haha. i'm going for tml's one i don't care. =p

homework and studies. ya i knoe most of you wanna nag at me. i know i know. i'm trying very hard to start the momentum. haha. yes start cos i haven even have it how to keep it right? i'm beginning to think that i will flunk my Os. unless i start studying now, tats the thing.

Haven you guys heard the song dream a lil dream of me? haha. love it. here goes..
Stars shining bright above you
Night breezes seem to whisper I love you
Birds singing in the sycamore tree
Dream a little dream of me

Say nighty-night and kiss me
Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me
While I'm alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me

Stars fading, but I linger on dear
Still craving your kiss
I'm longing to linger till dawn dear
Just saying this

Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave our worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me

so jazzzzzzie. very cool song. betcha all heard it in commercials before.

flu and lots of mucus sore throat. i feel like dyign when ever i sneeze and my throat feels like its going to come out of my mouth. the oesophagus. yes. and cough. its wet cough. and i feel so tight around my nose and eyes area. ya the T-zone. skin is peeling... ya.. no matter how many tons and dozens of bottles of moisturizer i apply.. but jus dun lemme go out with a skinny peelie skinn!! i cant face the world. ReD is better than peeling...

2005-06-20T08:33:00.000+08:00

youth alive conference... cool huh?
heard the church in yishun called smthing like yishun christian church is involved too. i wonder if i'll see my school boys brigade people in MY church. haha. rent my church as their conference holdin place. oh well. i know this is boring. the fact is it IS boring. i mean its like 0837 in the morning, for goodness sake. and i am like in church already. i am tired. tired. tired. half awake. and thus i am using geok's laptop, MY account. =p to blog lame stuff which aint interesting. anyway i dun think anyone bother to read my long and lengthy entries la maybe except Seetoh Cheegeok and Samantha. ya. maybe walang too. wadever. i blog for the fun of it anyway its not as if i am really desperate to let people know about my fun and exciting life as an o level student. --"

wow.. lots of angmoh are walking into the church! haha. and yes i am the receptionist so i get to say hi to them. hahaa. cheegeok stop staring. actually they said hi to me first cos seriously they are naturally friendlier compared to us. jingjing and huiping are doing cafe now. til four. and i am the receptionist now til forever. haha nono, i mean til the end of today. =D.....D=

homework shld go no where else but drains. all the long gangs. hate them to bitssss.

2005-06-17T14:16:00.000+08:00

i am totally burnt.
roasted.
people say i am a lobster, crabmeat and some other sea creatures i can't remember.
i dunno why, i didnt intend to get tanned, no tanning oil or sunblock results in the red me. =p
it hurts. for the first time, it does.

got to know many people! esp jianming's team who used to be quite foreign to me. got to know some other people too. quite cool.

one year ago i was integrated. now a year later, i am integrating and so many things have changed!

Ami Runqi Elien. love them. ((:

2005-06-16T08:39:00.000+08:00

Sentose here i come!

2005-06-14T20:38:00.000+08:00

todae i slept the whole afternoon. oh man... wasted. study at night!

got so many planning to do.. got to learn to cope man. story books are right in front of me but yet i cant read them. the saddest is not having no books but is having it right infront of u but u cant read it. D=

incontactable people irritates me.

Sentosa outing on Thursday! i think i am quite looking forward to it just that those homework and my results are really pulling me back. it dampens my mood! i think i am going to read there. haha. take the chance. i wun get into the sea! no way.. hate to feel the sand sticking to my skin. its so irritating! i shall go and relive my favourites: photos and books! =D

Friday there's things on the whole day too. Recep.. cg.. prayer meetin. see? Thursday to Sat morning gone. i think i'll sleep whole day on Saturday most probably. Sunday is gone asusual. Do u see the picture? my holiday's OVER. Last week. What can i do in a week? catch up needs more time than that. if i fail my Os, its just predictable. i shall pass and do well by God's grace.

why do i have to study!?!?!!? argh..

2005-06-13T23:17:00.000+08:00

i wanna study. i wanna study. i wanna study.

i am not lying, not lying, not lying.

but no time. hai

i mean, i have time but it isnt enough for me to complete my homework and catch up with others. and they call this a holiday. hate it. i cant even sit down or rest without having the "oh-gosh-i-have-to-do-blahblahblah" thought.

currently trying to finish reading many books. but.. no time also.
1) You the Leader
2) The Penwyth Curse
3) Cold Ridge
4) He is Glory
5) Bible!
6) 7 Habits of highly effective teens

i hope time passes slowly. and give me the luxury of reading please...

2005-06-08T18:28:00.000+08:00

Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned
Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was no lie
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin
Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind

People can take everything away from you
But they can never take away your truth
They say I'm crazy
I really don't care
That's my prerogative
They say I'm nasty
But I don't give a damn
I don't need permission, make my own decisions

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
Where I used to sit and talk with you
We were both 16 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day staying up all night
Its everywhere I go its everything I see
When I sleep I dream and it gets me by

You can't stop me now
You can't hold me down
You can't keep me here, I'm on my way
I've made it this far now
And I'm not burning out
No matter what you say, I'm not afraid

Every window pane is shattering
Letting out the noise inside of me
Cutting off my words before I speak

Taught me how to stand
Took me by the hand
And showed me how to be a bigger man
Listened when you talked
Followed where you walked
And you know that I will always do the best I can...

Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
It's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget
And being on this road is anything but sure
Maybe we'll forget, I hope we don't forget

You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend

Back home
I always thought I wanted so much more
Now im not too sure
And feeling free
Free to stand beside
The ocean in moonlight
And light myself a smoke beneath
The dark atlantic sky

It's all in the way
you look through your eyes
and when all is said and done
All of the fear and all of the lies
are not hard to overcome
It's all in the way you look at it
that makes you strong

I'm 16 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming

So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming
All this love melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love

These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone
You better believe I'm coming
You better believe what I say
You better hold on to your promises
Because you bet, you'll get what you deserve

A few times I've been around that track
So it's not just gonna happen like that
Cause I ain't no hollaback girl
I ain't no hollaback girl
People hear you talking like that, getting everybody fired up
So I'm ready to attack, gonna lead the pack
Gonna get a touchdown, gonna take you out

I've crossed deserts for miles
Swam water for time
Searching places to find
A piece of something to call mine
Ran along many moors
Walked through many doors
The place where I wanna be
Is the place I can call mine
I'm moving, I'm coming
Can you hear what I hear
Never been here before
I'm intrigued and I'm sure
I'm searching for more
I've got so much to see
This is where I wanna be
In a place I can call mine

There's no more air
Tripping over myself, going nowhere
Waiting, suffocating, no direction
Been wondering why it's only me
Have you always been inside waiting to breathe
It's alright, sunlight on my face
I wake up and yet, I'm alive
I was so afraid of going under
But now, the weight of the world
Feels like nothing, no nothing

I don't know where to begin
I don't know where to dig in
It's been too long and I'm about to be in time for me
It's been too long and I'm in time
I never thought I would win
I never thought much about that
I never stopped to begin
Thinking about the process

I've told you time and time again
You sing the words but don't know what it means
To be a joke and look
Another line without a hook
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay
What’s the worst that I can say
Things are better if I stay
Well, if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay

It's a strange emotion this
but there's still hope in this
As long as there's a breath
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy
Living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road, get up and go if I knew

Paint a picture with my hands
Change the weather still together when it ends
If I could fall into the sky,
Do you think time
would pass me by?

Stars shining bright above you
Night breezes seem to whisper I love you
Birds singing in the sycamore tree
Dream a little dream of me
Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave our worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me

Such a funny thing for me to try to explain,
How I'm feeling and my pride is the one to blame.
Have you ever told someone something
That's far from the truth
Let them know that you're okay
Just to make them stop
All the wondering, and questions they may have
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Have you ever seen your face,
In a mirror there's a smile
But inside you're just a mess,
You feel far from good
Need to hide, 'cos they'd never understand
Have you ever had this wish,
of being Somewhere else
To let go of your disguise, all your worries too
And from that moment, then you see things clear

What if I told you
It was all meant to be
Would you believe me
Would you agree
Everything changes
But beauty remains
Something so tender
I can't explain
Well I may be dreaming
But still lie awake
Can we make this dream last forever

WOOHOO! MY MEDLEY OF LYRICS. hahaha. =D

The worst is over now and we can breathe again! <-- Broken by Seether.

2005-06-08T17:49:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i have sort of gotten used to waking up early in the morning and practically crawling out of my bed to the bathroom everyday. tho i am tired, damn tired, i have like.. gotten used to that feeling which is not a good sign. i need sleep. Zzz..

yes, my results arent good and for heaven's sake i myself know that better than anyone else. i know what i am doing and i know what i can, what i shall and what i will do. church is not the problem, get it?

packed my table!! can u believe it?? hehe.. Ripley's believe it or not!

didnt go emerge today. peeved.

2005-06-04T20:26:00.000+08:00

principal rally was kind of cool..
mr tan.. how would i describe him.
i hate him, i admire him.
ya.

why do i hate him? cos he is arrogant.. yeap. and he is overly ambitious, he is demanding and he treats people under him like dogs. yes. look how loyal teo seng teck is and u'll get wad i mean.

"off my phone!" says mr tan, without please or thank you. and there runs seng teck, up the auditorium and den stage. run! the whole graduating co-hort just laughed at him la.. seriously i felt quite embarrassed for him. and mr yim who just follows his instructions including smiling when mr tan use his sarcasm on him. goodness.

and to get wad he wants, tat tan teck hock can be unscrupulous too. he forces ppl who cant pass some subjects by prelim to drop them. practically force. so tat school standard won't drop! tats why i don't like him. he does not have a good character.

However, on the other hand, i really admire him. he is someone with a vision and goal clear in his head and he works towards it. i admire his attitude towards life, knowledgeable and quick to problems and changes. and! he got nice legs. haha.

well well well.. his motivational talk was good. he is the second hitler i would say! yeap..

thinking about wad i want in my life and i think i am beginning to get it. first time i actually have a clear picture in my head. and i pray about it, i think about it, i talk about it and i know my feeling towards it have always been the same. i practically dream about it, times when i feel that it isnt right, i do dream about it and i wake up feeling fresh and clear and totally inspired again. i believe in it and it feels my head. now i know what they mean when they say working towards your goal. =)

the world is for me to go,
countless of places to be explored,
though it may be vast and big.
but as Rudy Thomson said,
"No one should let a challenge stand in their way."
i'm going out there one day. (:

"Your past forms you, whether you like it or not. Each encounter and experience has its own effect, and you're shaped the way a wind shapes a mesquite on a plain."
-Lance Armstrong

"Some men see things as they are and ask why? Others dream things that never were and ask why not?"
-George Bernard Shaw

2005-05-31T22:59:00.000+08:00

mdm tan is so gross.
"proton elctron and neutron," says my fren.
"loudeST (when it should be louder)" says mdm tan.

her english is so terok.
and all her "i funny or u funny" question.

and she just rattles on non stop the moment i entered the ava room.
so sorry but her rashes are different from mine.
hers is those never bathe then perspire den have one
mine is allergy.

and mine her, she ought to stop using the same pathetic piece of tissue to clean her face again and again for who knows how many times. and FYI, the tissue is thrown back into her magic box which contains everything from papers to markers. and then she takes it out again and being so environmentally friendly, she RESUSE the tissue man. if the whole world is like her, firstly, tissue company will collapse. btu guess wad? facial company will thrive man.. you get wad i mean.

and she claims that i am the most laid back person in class. hah hah hah. sadly for her i aint the lowest in physics la. wads e point of doing everything she says but scoring the lowest in class. not doing anything and not performing well is better than doing everything but still failing like nobody's business. thank God i don't belong to the latter.

and guess wad was her reason to explain my laid back-nesS? she claims that i fell in love and is helping the government cos i wanna start a family. goodness sake i can come up with a million and one better reasons. basically i think she is just old short and eccentric. all short teachers are weirdos, just like this miss lek in xishan primary. both of them are the shortest and weirdest teacher i have met in my whole education life.

E-cube camp isnt fun at all, as they claim that one of the E is Enjoy. teachers are maniacs. they ENJOY being tortured. oh nono.. their enjoyment comes from torturing us.

can't believe it. my sarcasm is coming back. triggered back by that old shorty mdm tan. am i suppose to thank her or wad?!

2005-05-30T17:31:00.000+08:00

why bother bout someone when they dun give a hoot right?
this is so simple to understand and yet only til now do i realise.
such a simple and straight forward logic.
common sense in fact and i don't have it. oxymoron.
slow or retard?
for once, i think i belong to both.

but anyway! life's great man. ((:

Chinese Os not good. haha.. its tough! but others say it isnt. so what now..
there goes my A1.
moderation better be to my advantage!

nothing is constant in this world except changes.

learn to adapt!
who moved my cheese?
well.. seems like my cheese ran away itself!
heh heh.

self control. breakthrough.
what awesome sermon.
its still in my head, filling my thoughts.
*wow*

2005-05-28T22:05:00.000+08:00

what am i suppose to do.. will You please tell me?

((: breakthroughs. i know i can do it.

hit 4 last week! wow.. love it. gonna keep at it! though the devil may come knocking at my door.. he may come, but he is just COUNTER attacking. I am the one that is attacking! heh heh heh... i have great sheeps! i love them, i tell ya. ;)

its so amazing.. i can't get enough of pastor's sermon. i was so tired but it was great. blew me away... breakthroughs. push the rock, not move the rock! like things that have happened recently. i realised that i have done all i can for them and have learnt loads! though the rock still didnt move in the end, but my Rock moved! yes, God moved in my life and brought me to a higher level, expanded my capacity and let me learn new things and receive new revelations. had one of the best sermons of my life, so far. haha.

i learnt, Samantha! i want it. ((: just you wait and see.

i feel faith arising. its ringing in my ears. shouting in my head. echoing in my mind. wow. can you hear the sound of faith??

* i am moving *

* nothing's gonna stop me *

* i'll walk over obstacles and cross the raging sea *

* without a sweat, cos the Lord is with me *

* i am drawing closer *

* smiless *

2005-05-25T21:39:00.000+08:00

wad am i doing. no one knows.
where am i heading. only i know.
who am i. you should know.
when do i start. when i know when to stop.
how do i go on. by faith.

i click with the dwarfs company. we're just so cool. =p

self control! wow.. wad a great sermon. ((: its not just bout when to stop, whether smoking or wadever, but when to start too! studying and stuff. awesome.
selfcontrol in greek is akarates. it comes from the root word kratos which means strength! and "A" in Akarates has a negative effect just like "in" in insincere, incomplete. so Akarates actually means without strength! cool huh. haha. if u can control yourself, you're strong!

self control. not to just get out of the trouble caused cos u fell into temptation but also to control yourself from falling into the temptation in the first place. wow. self control is strength! if u cant control yourself, you're weak, better get this idea straight in your head.

2005-05-19T09:34:00.000+08:00

yes. i know. i am blogging on a thursday morning at 0933.i knoe i knoe. i pon sch again right? argh wadever.

i hate chinese. its so disgustingly 'important'. my teacher and my school makes it sound as if getting an A is more difficult than passing A math. goodness. we have chinese lesson all the way from 0745 to 1600!!! morning til night. and after 1600 some of us still got to stay back and seee the teacher 1 to 1. lame to the brim man. i hate. and this lasts 2 weeks! i can't wait for chinese Os to come. :/

i have to go see doc to get mc. stupid larrrr... for e sake of an mc. perhaps i can just go register myself and take the slip of paper with my name, i/c and date and time of visit and give my teacher. i shall tell her i... er.. well.. lost the mc or something. or just say i forgot to collect the mc instead. oh well whatever. she just got to accept it whether she wants to or not.

i am very tired. thats the main reason why i didnt go sch today. i was so tired this morning i actually thought this morning was a saturday morning cos i dreamt that it was saturday and i wanted to believe that it is true so much, i fell into self deception. haha. but my mother wakes me up la. so i changed! cos i wasnt sure whether i can pon or not, getting an mc sux. so i told my mum in my full sch uniform and bag and socks and said "arghhh! (i screamed here) i dontt want to go to schooooooool..."

and den she said..

"then why you change?"

aha. yes. she didnt object but silently support me. maybe she didnt support me in ponning school btu i shall just believe that she did. haha. silently. wooh~ the rain is starting. big wind now!!! lurrrrve it. feel so free and cool this morning. hehe. going to sleep my fill later. i can smell the ozone~

i made meeeee hunnnn kuayyy just now. not sure whether its spelled like that but, nevermind. haha. the like ban mian and hand made noodle that kind... but is one piece one piece dough de. u guys shld know la. hha. it was so nice. i think i am talented. *smirks*

another long weekend this week! haha. loveeee it! sunday night can go partayeeee~

2005-05-18T17:39:00.000+08:00

dammit! i didnt get A for chinese. shoottt.. i got B3. and my chinese teacher called me a 'yao-guai', meaning monster. argh wadever.. cos she says my expression in writing compo is very good and very bad. yar. tat makes me a monster! ingredients to be a monster. and she expects me to write a compo everyday for her. lets see how i'm gonna do it.

i am damn disappointed la. no efforts, no nothing. i don't see anything, and what i have come to realise is that i've been living in self deception after all. not everything has a happily-ever-after ending, and believe me, neither will you have it.

despicable.

i've only lived for like 16 years 3 months and.. let's see.. 13 days! just walked thru a small part of my life but i think i've seen quite a bit of things and gained different experience from various parts of my life. and i have learnt my fair deals of lessons from my silly mistakes made too! many things come and go along the way, sometimes its not within our control but more often den ever we let it slip past without realising it until we begin to search for it. cos many people are like that, we tend to focus on what we do not have instead of treasuring what we already have and in the process of doing so, we don't realise that rich people are people who needs the least and not people who has the most. some people are never satisfied. but well, i have learnt to hold things back, retain the things that i feel are important and dear to me and to treasure them. Similarly, i learn to let go of some stuff. sometimes when its time to let go, we let go. no point hanging on to things that aren't meant to be yours, right? and if we lose it, we get up and pick up our pace and move on. life goes on whether you want it to or not, the world never stops spinning. no point holding on and clinging to things that doesnt belong to you. Never ever should we brood over the past and not move on. no point crying over spilt milk unless you wanna lick it off the floor or something.

haha used so many quotes and cliche stuff this entry.

i realised one more thing! u may have somethign for a few years, 10 or 20, feelings may be there, but when trials come, it may fall apart from you. but there are somethings that you meet with that though its just months or maybe weeks, but nothing can tear you away from it, no matter what difficulties or obstacles are in the way. i think you guys know the Who i am talking about here. ((: but for other things in my life, i guess if its time to let go, i can. after all, i treasured them and never neglected their existence. but sometimes things are just not meant to be and i can accept this fact, graciously.

therefore...

Time is not the essence. its the heart. *)

2005-05-17T20:37:00.000+08:00

oh man. this sucks. wadever la jus shuddup.

exams started and its ending. oh man. i hate to blog bout results cos everyone's gonna blog bout the same stuff, how lousy they're gonna do but actually they arent that horrible after all. how i wish i can blog bout how well i'm gonna do. hah hah hah. -.-

tml's last paper. A math paper 2. i am gonna flop like a fish. *shruggggggs*

maybe i shld talk bout my fav stuff! tat'll make me happieee.=D

past time: day dreaming! love it. lie on the bed and rot, wooh, u dunno how great it feels to me. just lie there and stone. i hardly get to do tat, though. =/

Anime: Witch hunter Robin. heh heh. no one knows what i am talking about. nevermind~

Songs: there are some particular songs that when i listen to, it makes me feel nostalgic. but i just cant seemt to grasp what i was experiencing a long time ago when i listen to that song. like i suffer from memory lost or something. den i'll start to squeeze my brain for just a tinge of memory that is in my sub conscious mind. but sometimes i just cant remember. hah hah, yea, i love that feeling.

Desire: be a loner. yar. but i cant, cos i cant even watch a movie alone. hahaha.

Wants: have a super duper nice room. only i know my own definition of nice, of cos. haha. basically the room will be air conditioned 24/7. and good sound system! den i'll blast my fav song and either rot on the bed or read! hahaha.. yea. i'm lazy!

cupboard: cupboard of all kinds of different outfits. hohoho... dress nice nice go out can relief stress! well, my philosophy. :/

once in a while: go overseas with my camera. =)

All in all, what i realise is, i am a person who doesnt like to slog. haa. yah. i just wan to enjoy life and relax! many people might think that what i like are plain boring and no-life la, but i like leh, what can u do. i am quite contended, as long as there is a space for me to dream and imagine in. that's my life goal!

i think i'm gonna get a lot of questioning, but... mah.. ika!

2005-05-13T20:10:00.000+08:00

i wonder in despair wads happening. people around me, close to me, seems to be having a hard time living life. firstly, she faces trouble with some stuff and was feeling totally sian about everything but hopefully its better now. den now someone else is struggling with self identity, not sure where he belongs.. and some just realised that they have no life. another falls out of r/s. another feels bleak about his future, worried that in the midst of reaching his ultimate goal of having a happy family, he has suffocated so many other things alng the way and that perhaps he might not attain it after all. some simply get worried about their studies, while others worry bout money.

i used to judge such cases as self inflicted problems but i just realised that sometimes its more den just problems. it eats up your mind, it devours your thoughts and it messes up your emotions. and sometimes its not even within the means of our control. for me, i don't face much serious problems, which i do not know whether its healthy or not. but sometimes i do think back, think back so hard that my mind seemed wholly taken up with reminiscences of past gaiety. in fact i love doing that. and then the sad part comes. i think of what i am gonna do in future and i get... ????? yes, i get question marks and more question marks. i don't even know whether i am going to a poly or a jc, not say what i am gonna do in future. but well, i think i am gonna do something that requires me to travel. i love the world out there and i am not someone who will stay still, definitely. if i feel tied down to something, i will only struggle harder to get out of it, i assure you. so... don't use something as a reason and as a point of argument to make me change my decision cos it aint gonna work out. once i find that doing that whatever thing is a chore and i am doing it as a i-have-to thing and not a i-want-to thing, i probably withdraw myself bit by bit. i dunno what i am blogging about now, from problems to my point of view towards myself and my future. maybe thats the biggest problem i face, i must agree.

so many people come and talk to me and disagree with what i am going to do. they discourage me, in fact. i know they mean well and sometimes i really do get a bigger picture of the whole thing, but more often than ever, i still want to do it. i won't do things you want me to do even if u give me a million and one reasons to do it. the reason is simply, i don't have the drive to. if i am gonna live life bearing that responsibility and surpressing my true feelings and wants, won't i live miserably? but of cos its a totally different thing if what i wanna do is also my responsility. i would much rather do what i want to and if it is reli a mistake, i wun regret cos i know i have not let myself down. to surpress my feelings and wants, i think i am being sorry to myself. i can't imagine if one day when i am old, when i think back, instead of happiness, my mind is filled with reminiscence of unfulfilled wishes. by then, i'd be too old to do anything. therefore, pursue your dreams, young people!! =D

dream

2005-05-11T13:57:00.000+08:00

A Dream House is a House you Dream IN,
not a House you Dream OF

i think

2005-05-08T21:29:00.000+08:00

i think there's many things in life we ought to treasure. things that i always see as natural and things i always took for granted.. someone esle out there wants them so badly. i have almost everything actually. i may nto be filthy rich but i can still get by. i am not horrendously ugly but i have a nose mouth eyes ears still. i am not wonderfully gifted but i knoe bit bout instruments and i dun exactly have a lousy brain either. i dun have a million and one frens but a dozen i can still find. i have a good family totally cool and awesome. i may not be super fit tat i can run a mile in 1 minute but i passed my 2.4! i think its so fortunate of me to be running the race with all of you guys out there.. i am so fortuanate to have wonderful pastors and leaders.. the greatest thing that is i have GOD in my life.

and some people out there feels sour cos they have had bad experiences. i understand.. you just feel sour and bitter when u see christians enjoyign themselves cos u dun have what they have and u deceive yourself by saying that they are doing the wrong things and den u hate them, u say bad things botu them and come up with a million and one philosophy to prove yourself right and make yourself sound totally darn cool when actually you are just showing how bitter you are feeling. just because u have had some bad experiences? God didnt answer your prayers? you are just walking in that shadow, feelign small and sour on the inside. using words to hide your emptines.. i know it all too well. cos i was once like that too.

No God no Peace. know God know peace.

were u so affected by this few words? saying a million and a dozen philosophies which u think is totally cool and believable doesnt show anything. it just shows how empty and bitter u feel at that moment in time cos what i've said shot u right through. if u read this u are probably go and blog a zillion and one more new philosophy to reciprocate. so what. my conclusion still remains.

its not how you begin but how u end. if u give up halfway without ending it.. i have nothing to say. people don't look down on you and laugh at u when u fall. some people might not even notice. it is when u fall and u refuse to stand up that people will start to realise that u fell. and u run away to the roadside, refusing to see the truth face to face but choose to take the easy way out and run away. still, people don't look down on you. they walk past you and smile at you and pulls u back.

"come, come," we say.

"..."

which path u choose in the end is still up to you. so many people come and go. if the path is smooth sailing, whats the point of it? its tough and rocky, therefore he who endures to the end shall be saved. fight the good fight of faith!! we are all rooting for ya. ;)

2005-05-08T09:51:00.000+08:00

i am going for reception meeting now~

wheeeeeeeee~~~ =D

blessed`

2005-05-06T15:07:00.000+08:00

i am so blessed. i only studied like a part of a chapter in my SS TB and it came out for structured. hohoho... education! lol. tats the only thing i studied and it came out. Hallelujah =D

i didnt complete my summary and situational. but i found a dozen other ppl who's gonna fail with me. lol. *i am bad*

i broke my record for chinese compo. i wrote a total of 6 pages for the whole paper 1. i have never wrote so long before i must be mad. i didnt fill in the missing words which i didnt know how to write. ooops. nvm. at most deduct 2 marks. wadever.

as usual, i cant write the hanzi. out of 5 i only got 1. means 8 marks gone~

seems like things are not going to be easy for me.

*awwwwwww*

memories`

2005-05-04T15:23:00.000+08:00

as i think back i cannot help but recall so many different dozen faces that have flashed across my mind. you guys have just made such big impact in my life..

some people made me who i am today like my primary school guy frens. if they didnt existed maybe i wld just be a lil bit gentler. =p my primary sch ger frens, gave me a big portion of all the sweetest and horribl-est memory of my primary school days i can dig out from my brain so far. and brought me to church. ((:

to my wonderful frens in secondary school, yes you guys who went thru 4 years with me. now that we are running the race together, reli lurrve u guys loads! dun ever give up the race, we gotta end it well TOGETHER. =) if u feel weary and tired, remember, you are not alone. wadever trials or trebulations u face will be over, if you just hang on. always keeping you guys in prayers *:)

my classmates! all my dwarfs and poor people! =D u guys add joy to my boring lessons, encourage me to keep working hard. lets do well for Os together. ^-^

my leaders, all above me. thank you guys for bringing me to where i am now, all the guidance and corrections! no you, no me. =D do well for As!

my family, my mother for everything and my sisters for A math and laughter at home. meimei i know u are reading. (: you guys definitely make up the largest part of my life, i knoe we will be sisters forever, we wun be stingy and petty like you-know-who. =p

Last and the biggest thanks to my God above. my biggest thanks.

*smiles*

disappointed

2005-05-04T15:14:00.000+08:00

betray my trust de ppl shall eat poo and die

back`

2005-05-02T16:08:00.000+08:00

i just pushed away some bacteria and dug out the decomposers! haha. i am back.

(this blog's not dead, you know.)

stalkers are so freakie. try some down syndrome ones.

all things are possible, as long as u try! we are all here for you. (:

musical fountain is so cool. hoho =D romantic!!

oh well.. i am feeling slackish. today holiday say want study de but no feeling... how.. mid year wo si le.

but wun one, cos i am bright! hahahahahha.=D

hate teh weather nowadays. so hotttt. its tym to put chewting's penguin electric fan to good use. =p

peishan went offline. suddenly feel so lonely. haha.. i just want to read books and listen to song and relax. but i cant do that, oh mannnnn~

*trace back to reality*

okae~ gotta go watch my anime and den do hw! do those disgusting chinese essays and newspaper cutting. A math! i am beginning to love it. haha. i am indeed mentally unstable.

i think its all up there. your mind is very powerful, when i tell myself i love something, i love it but when i keep telling myself i hate it and cannot do it, i cant. cos after i learn a math form my sister, i found out tat it is actually quite easy. dunno why ppl who practice so hard and do and do and still keep failing. i dunno~ haha. i am being overly full of myself. =/

i missed my target again todae. i didnt revise my SS nor my history. can i dun? oh man~ off to watch my princess comet and digimon!! haha. i am young at heart.

*Pray until something happen!!*

rot??

2005-04-21T00:40:00.000+08:00

ROT
v. rot·ted, rot·ting, rots

1. To undergo decomposition, especially organic decomposition; decay
1. To become damaged, weakened, or useless because of decay: The beams had rotted away.
2. To disappear or fall by decaying: One could see the blackened areas where the branches had rotted off.
3. To languish; decline: “He was thrown into one of Napoleon's dungeons and left to rot” (Michael Massing).
4. To decay morally; become degenerate.

Yea.. this is wads happening to my bloGg!

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Rotting

encourager`

2005-04-10T23:28:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really feel super duper upset. sometimes i get so down. i think everyone feels it at some point in their life, whether its now or what, i don't know. and i will want to escape from things in my life, and run away from problems. but everytime i feel that way, i know that it isnt what i should do. runnign away doesn't solve problems. neither does ignoring or self pity work. this is what i do...

When life's burdens get so heavy and it seems i'm all alone,
I cast my care on Jesus and come boldly to His throne.

I find His grace sufficient and His promises i need,
For His very life he sacrificed and He lives to intercede.

He is the Lord of Lord and when He speaks,
winds and waves obey.
When Jesus whisper peace be still,
then darkness turns to day.

And as i am trusting in my Saviour's words,
doubts and fears all cease.
And beneathe the shelter of His wings,
I'm at rest in perfect peace.

-This was written to me by my sheep. it is so encouraging to me, and this is what everyone should do when you feel lost. because God is our refuge.

“ You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. ”
- Romans 5:6-8

darn it`

2005-04-10T23:14:00.000+08:00

i am quite shocked.. i thought today's attendance was gonna be horrible but it went past 10 even! woah... but its still like below expectation.. oh well..
so who came? there was jiayi, peishan, chewting, naigel, cecelia, runqi, lingfang, guoquan, peiying, angelina, elien, sharrer! thinks tats all. 12! oh well, tat suck actually. rezon has qingmingjie, sally got po, amy got kendo exam... if not it would have been 15! and 15 is only what we shld get.
my team hit 3 today! praise the Lord =D
homework left undone... everything is not done. i feel tat i am digging my own grave. i ought to stop it soon! i knoe tat, please dun nag at me, people.

skipped sch again

2005-04-04T15:03:00.000+08:00

haha yea. last week was so hectic i slept an average of 3-4 hrs a day for the whole week! slp at ard 2 and wake at ard 6 everyday.. i am very tired! slept my fill todae~

i lurrve russell D. to bits! reli like him. hope he comes back next year or he will simply remain as memories liao. haha =D

tell u guys wad! i am gonna get an ang moh husband! wait and see ((:

*winkx!*

Red Rain

2005-04-03T23:08:00.000+08:00

oh man. RedRain totally rawk my world. i am SERIOUS. i reli reli adoreeee them!! u knoe, they reli rawked my whole weekend til i am so dreamiieee still, even til now. hehee.. Michael Turner, Stevie boy, Dave and Dive (whatever way its spelled but they are reli called this tho they are both Davids), and last but the most! Russel D.!!!! i do not know his full name but i know that he totally rawk! he has only been in sounds for one week, you know. ((:

u dun agree with me he is cute?? u got to be joking! look at this!

oh well.. NOW u got to AGREE WITH ME right??? heh heh... betcha many are right clicking now trying to save his picture right?? cos i am the only one with tat exclusive photo!! hohoho.. thanks to cheegeok! she took it for me!! =D lurrve her to bits!

and next, i've got the Mr Popular in RedRain!! yeapp.. the drummer, David!! the pics are blurr tho..

and another one..

and now's Peishan's favourite, Steve!! and unfortunately, its blur too.

hha oh well.. oh well. guess wad? Leonard's zone hit 112!! woooh~ now who can give a loud Amen to that?!

*AMEN!!*

i am so happy that NaiNai's NaiNai again!! u guys ought to learn from him the heart for EV-ing. Nigel definitely rawk ytss with me!

these are Peishan me and Nai!

yea. we reli practically RAWK YTSS man! hehehe... we hit more den 20!!!! now we ought to give an extremely horribly terribly loud and earth shakingly, planet shakingly, ytss shakingly, LOUD HALLELUJAH!!!!

"Hallelujah!"

*oOo0o... Earth shakes!*

anyway, its the season to harvest! and i am happily suffering from muscle pain! hoho.u cant imagine.. i myself cant believe it tat we have hit more den 20 when initially we cant even hit 15!! here's the list of names of all our integration and new frens..

Sec 4s:
Jiayi (me myself!!)
Peishan
Nigel
Chewting
Crystal
Yanfeng
Paul

Sec 3s:
Cecelia
Runqi
Amy
LingFang(chess pro)
GuoQuan(couldn't make it cos he was sick til he was bed ridden!!)

Sec 2s:
RenZhong
xueli(she's gonna cum back!)
Jermaine(she's gonna cum back too!)

Sec 1s:
Sally
Angelina
Peiying
Elien
Hanna
Melaney
LiuQing
LeeHao

They are all the wonderful peeps from yishun town, some came for redrain, some didnt but they totally rawk! 20+ of them altogether and ytss is reli goig thru a great time for harvest! gonna take the younger generation for God! we are going all out! full force! all out! ((:

the devil must be whimpering in the corner right now! haha. no. i thin he's throwing a tanthrum! stamping his feet and pulling out all his hair. lol. maybe he doesnt even have hair! such nice things dun go with him. but most probably, he is sitting at his stinky corner, devising a plan to stop us. but we wun give in, and he will never win. he will always lose! i am gonna make him twitch with anger or better still, he better get a stroke when he sees ytss exploding! =D

*victory!*

"V" for Victory!

v(^-^)v

ytss.. we rawk!! we got to be bigger den this...!

and this! its only 10, people!!

2005-03-31T22:31:00.000+08:00

You Are the Girl Next Door!

You're caring, warm, and the girl that nice guys want to marry.
Uncomplicated and simple, you've got an easy going attitude guys love.
But this doesn't mean you're dull - far from it!
You're a great conversationalist, and you're an expert at living the good life.

i think this quiz is darn accurate. *bleahxx* =p

ReD RaiN is finally COMING!!!! hahaa.... i cant wait!!!
Yishun Town's gonna explode! u got to see wad i see yarrrr???

i lurrve studying.
i lurrve chemistry
i lurrve A MATH (can u believe it!!)
i lurrve English
i lurrve Chinese
i lurrve E MATH (i reli do!)

i do not lyk humanities. so tedious.
i do not lyk physics either. so boring and dry.

but!! i lurrve O levels. ((:
cant wait for it to come soon! heh heh. =D
i am expecting As.
i am expecting Bs.
i am expecting Cs.
i am expecting Ds.
i am expecting Es.
i am expecting Fs.
i am expecting Gs.
i am expecting Hs.
i am expecting Is.
i am expecting J...
Jiayi! to do well. =)

dieee

2005-03-31T01:39:00.000+08:00

now its like damn late and i dun think i'll blog any interesting stuff. kinda brain dead now. seriously.
have been slping at earliest 2+ and waking up ar 6+ evryday since this weel started. i was so tired jus on monday afternoon. i was selected for self study. means i stay in school til earliest 6 EVERY SINGLE DAY. oh well. kind of good actually. since i don't have self discipline i have external discipline. many of you must be nodding your head or agreeing to this cos who in the world thinks i have self discipline la. haha.so yar. haven started on A math yet. i dunno how i am going to die. but i know June Holidays will be horrendous for me. i know tat.
i feel pathetic. everyday i return home is the same sight, my dajie on the com, her bf on the bed playing PS2, my er jie somewhere ard studying her optometry and the kid my mum looks after sticking stickers or jus doing funny things. and i just put my bag on my bed and grumbles on about the lack of privacy and lack of study place. how in the blue hell do i study in a room like mine. goodness. and den wad i dun need is my dajie shooting me with irritating remarks like "eh, christian can do this meh? Christians can do that meh?" den when i tell her to shut up she jus continues on rattling non stop insisting tat she is right and den say stuff like ya wad, if lidat u guys arent practicing wad u preach and believe in. they expects us to be saints. dumbo man. tats the last thign i need to hear from her and there she is rubbing on it. why cant she just shut up? that saves her saliva and my energy in getting peeved over it.
if i want to really study, i guess the first step is to chase them out of my rrom of cos except my er jie who doesnt speak stuff tat are shallow and irritating to hear. anyway my room's hers too. if he reli fancies the PS2 so much, might as weel carry it next door to play. get a life man. and goodness gracious me, i don;t even have a table to do my hw. oh well oh well.....

photos`

2005-03-25T18:24:00.000+08:00

haha.. went early in the morning at 0730 to go baibai my grandma. she dead dunno a few years le. haha after she die i dun have any grand-thingy left. lol.. not reli sad cos in e first place i dun reli know her.
well, i went! haha.. and i told my mother and sister before hand i wun hold those smelly sticks. lol. den my mother at first say why nv tell her my secret (she meant me not willing to hold the sticks) i jus told her its not a secret and why shld i tell her, since even if she object i still wun hold it. lol. she thot i was scared la. bleahxx.. my father oso dun care la. so ya i stood in e middle and my mother bai on my behalf.
i took my digi cam there and fooled ard! so farrrn. heh heh... well, my ahma was cremated so she is stored in these rows and rows of dead friends along with her la. smthing liek this...

lol. yea. i anyhow took pictures with flash ON and some ppl almost killed me with their stares. =p yar.. and den i took a picture of my ahma and ah gong de place and my mother and sister said tat maybe we print the pic out and next tym bai at home no need go there all the way. hahaha.. lamers.. and here are my grand thingiess..

yar. and i liked the rows and rows of altar thingy so much i decided to make one the bckground of my picture. and i took a foto with my mum!!

and i loved the tomb stone which is so rare in singapore which i believe will be extinct in a few years time due to the need of land, i took a picture on it too!! aha.. here goes...

well.. i am so bad right. oh well... heh heh.. and anyway, i feel that the smoke in the place has a purpose. haha. when ppl see the altar sad want cry can say is the smoke tat made their eyes watery. haiyah lame la lame. anyway.. i found something weird in the place. firstly, the barren tree in midst of all the other leafy trees..

and den, there is this westernish looking lamp! haha. the whole place is liek china temple all those suddenly got western lamp post...

at another corner..

and some interesting cute structures.. log chairs by tress?? i dunno..

and a bent tree. haha..

another one..

and den i took some nice photos...

yesterday was sports day! haa.. the coolest and sweatless sports day i've ever been to. almost rotted there but well. hah tats not the point. the point is after tat we went to take. me and seetoh puishan. and we took some replicating foto!! enjoyyy.. they look similar but they arent the same..

and den we grew sick of the place! so we parked ourselves in the left and took even lamer ones. blur blur and blurr..

yea! den after tat we went to chruch! haha.. and there, leonard took some pictures. himself and me. hohoho..

and this is my territory!! haha.. invade it and perish.. =p

hah finished! curently i am uploading to my photo webby.. if u guys wnana see, can go to my link under "way out" and go to photos den go to view jlayl's gallery. somewhere there la. actually u can just go to http://jlayl.mypicgallery.com/ la. haiyo. i am dumb.. and it takes so longg to upload jus 3 fotos. oh well... enjoy! ((:

backk`

2005-03-24T02:07:00.000+08:00

yea i am back once again..
i have decided! i want to go nanyang jc. if i cant make it in, den forget it, i'll go poly. haha.. yar. cos if i get less den 12 points, i'll go jc and if i get more den that, forget it, i think poly wld be a better choice. after all, the cut off point adn standard of the jc has increased again. so irritating larh. as if it wasnt difficult enuff.
i think it is rel farrrnnie. how much peishan wanted to go to jc at the beginning of the year and how determined she was! and same for me, how determined and sure i was to go into a poly. but after 3 months, we switched position. haha.. its quite scary to think bout it. just a blink of an eye, 3 months flew by. and now april is coming so fast! its so fast i cant catch it at all. and den just another blink, its like august?? den another blink of an eye its Os. die arhh.. now i know i reli dun have enuff time le. and mid year is cuming in may. so fast!! i got to do well for it cos if i dun, i am dead in Os. anyway i promised myself to at least pass all la. a math.. i will try i guess.

i wanna watch ms congeniality! =D

i am very satisfied right now. haa.. cos i completed half of my hw le. left with bio and chem ws. well... i rawk!
i am gonna spend money watching movie and eating tml. i promise! hehee..

*starry starrieee nighttt*

muggg

2005-03-22T21:07:00.000+08:00

alrights. i am like doing my friggly hw now... so irritating. chinese!! argh... ytd did 2 compo and 2 situational at one shot, todae is 1 chinese compo and 2 newspaper articles at one shot. hate it!!! i cant stand hw. *shrugs*

oh well oh well... i hate hw.

i hate homework

i hate homework

i hate homework

i hate homework

i reli reli reli reli reli do
i reli reli reli reli reli do
hate homework
hate homework
hate hoemwork
hate homework!!!!!!!!

=@
=@
=@

alrights. off to do hw. =)

sick`

2005-03-20T22:40:00.000+08:00

today went well~ my planning and troubling of my whole holidays finally bore some fruits la! ((:
Well, they passed me the love token!! actually tears are like going to spill out but den i was rushing like mad for the bday so.. i just rushed and rushed and haha! i won the battle. but yar.. reli thank Leonard's Zone leaders!!! whoohoo!! i can see and feel and hear and sense and taste and smelll alllllll of yoru lurrrve for meee! =D but of cos, i cant bear to use tat money!! its too precious. so i gave it for my tithing! yeapppp.. so guys, dun worry, i didnt use it to make myself fatter! hehehh..
die arh. hw hw hw.. all undone. how?
i wan sch. but not hw!! arghhh... i wanna stop studyig. cant stand it!!

one starry night just like tonight when these
city lights seem like candlelight
one starry night somewhere between midnight
and sunrise everything will be alright

2005-03-14T20:55:00.000+08:00

hahaha yolanda was so farrrnnieee
she was so hungry she felt pukish i guess. herrrherr..
anyway anyway!! with her help i finally got RedRain on my blogg. =D
haha and i finally learn more bout those weird codes for blogging. haha.. and so!! i added tat cute lil yello star i got from getty images.fire works star!! ((:
i like starsss. haha cos of this song by tension. hehee..

虽然辽阔的天空有sun, and the moon, and the stars
我并不会失去方向你是我生命中的卫星
牵引我走向你注定要围绕你身旁... ...

haha nice song~ =D "crazy about you"

2005-03-14T18:51:00.000+08:00

hello there readers of jiayi's blog. (: this is yolanda. and i'm helping the extremely lazy pig to blog. and she hasn't done anything red rain-ish yet. so i'm going to help her paste a picture of them here!! yay!! come for the red rain concert. they totally rock!

harh`

2005-03-13T02:11:00.000+08:00

yay!! i am addicted to blogging once again! haha..
just finished talking to qixiang. lol and i have decided to get him out of his misery!! hhoho.. yar. if i can help him i sure will larr. but maybe he can help me with a math firsst. =p

as i think back on the good old days more den 10 years ago when i was still in ang mo kio, my old house (now this is reli good OLD days alrightsss) , i feel so... nostalgic. well, wad can i sae.. life seems to be carefree den. i rmb running to the mama shop downstairs to buy this black color plastic thingy called "tikam" which cost 30 cents and den open the bag with such anticipation, hoping that i wld get some good stuff! (the 30 cents came from my uncle after me and my sisters helped him to scratch his back!! =D) i mean.. its reli cool, becos which kid now will get satisfied with a 30 cent bag with some rubbish inside and not some cool gadgets they meddle with now? and again.. i dun think i'll ever get satisfied easily in my life ever again la. haha.. by a mere 30 cents it makes my day. can u imagine that? and.. as we grow up, we lose the innocence we have.. and we lose the simple and pure mindset all child holds. and we begin to ask for more and we arent ever satisfed. no wonder the bible says something about kids entering heaven. guess we shldnt comtemplate too much!! but den... kids nowadays are like polluted and they are so obnoxious and irritating. argh.. esp kids who are rich and plays with gadgets at a mere age of 5?? i feel sorry for them becos they have lost their childhood to gadgets and technology. i wonder wad satisfy them next??
and den the next farmilial thing is ice popsicles!! or i wld say better known as "sng bao'' which if directly translated from hokkien, it means ice bag. haha.. 10 cents and u got it! and u can even share it by splitting it into half. but kids nowdays are so selfish they rather let it melt away and they wun give it up. and they came up with so much fanciful ones... and ex too. well.. i still rmb i wld treat myself to one after u get hot and sweaty after a game of crocodile or catching at the void deck. crocodile was fun! we wld climb on top of the ping pong tables (oh yar, they are gonna be extinct soon) and one person will be the croc at the bottom who tries to grab someone on the table by the ankle.. welll.. if u play it now parents will probably classify it under highly dangerous stunts or smthing. lol... anyway the ping pong tables even if they exist wld be chopped by some hooligans i guess.. i wld play one-legged too! catcher skips while the opposite runs. ((: so fun! but i guess if i play it now it wld be boring?? holding the "sng bao" in ur hands.. u wld eagerly pay up and den start to bite it at the sharp end and turn and twist it til it broke! or some guys wld break it into two and upon failure to do so, they wld end up getting a half broken popsicle instead!! and adding on to tt, they will get sticky hands. haha.. but i guess sticky hands werent a prob to me then. but now.. haha. its gonna destroy my whole mood for the day man. the "sng bao" wld taste so sweet and cool and nice and u wld suck on it til it dries up totally. it simply taste so nice! but den now.. they taste so blant. eating finish one is a chore cos its just so plain and tasteless. is this wad eventually happens all the time?? just like how the adults in polar express gradually lost the ability to hear the bell ring in the end cos they stop believing in santa claus? the lose their simple and pure mindset and began to stop believing. well..
my parents and my 2 sisters with me used to slp together in one single room!! haha.. wad a feat huh?? i reli miss those days. even after i moved to my current hse for 5 yrs i still cld not get used to sleeping without my parents and i smtimes ccry myself to slp! it took me years and years to get over it. but as u grow older.. i guess u just adapt urself. those on room flat i used to stay.. maybe they are for those single ppl who rented it or smthing. i always wanted to go back to my old hse in AMK Blk 209 to see. but i again, feel tat its redundant. it wld have changed so much, being so nicely renovated that i wun even recognise a single corner of my hse.
i am feeling so nostalgic now. haha.. those mixed emotions of happiness as u recollect ur good old days, bringing smiles and yet bringing along a tinch of sadness. haha.. human minds are indeed hard to grasp. its gonna be a long long night..

The Promise

by Plus One


I know that lately
things have been so hard
and looking out
through your broken heart
all you can see is dark
and lonely days ahead
but remember Jesus said

He knows every star in the sky
every single tear that you cry,
His love is here faithful and alive
i know that this world can be cold
in His arms your never alone
that's His promise to you and I
but remember Jesus said

When hope has disappeared
and your heart aches
you might not recognize
the touch of grace
but on the other side
of every dying dream
His love is waiting patiently

With every angel there's a love
that never leaves your side
His love is deeper than the ocean
or a mountain high
you've got to know
there's hope in your heart
and if you listen with your heart
i know you'll hear Him say
you are my child and I am with you
each and everyday
He is the one Who knows your soul

2005-03-09T23:32:00.000+08:00

i've cum back to blog once again. harh..
anyway! i did horribly for my term tests. i've did worst man..

when i grow up.. i think i wanna work as smthing related to the nature. hhe. best is those nature photographer.. those take sceneries one. haha.. den take photos of the forests.. and the sky.. and the ocean.. wooh.. i think its damn cool la. =)
i think i really like trees and grass plus the sky! i think they're so peaceful and filled with serenity. sometimes when i get so busy and hectic i really wish that i am in that environment. and i hate it when i look out of the window and all i see are fake green man made environment supposedly meant to be nature-ish. worst still, all i see are flats all around me and cars and car parks. all i hear are the sounds of buses and cars and bikes and when i concentrate at a point, i see what my neighbours are doing in their apartment. goodness. i cant stand it. what i hate most is people walking pass my door a million times a day, since my unit is the first beside the lift. and in the morning all i hear are the shouts of my neighbour screaming at her grandson and the grandson screaming at his brother. all the lack of privacy is killing me. when i get home i see kids. irritating kids. i cant have the room to myself! i have no privacy, sometimes i just wanna live in solitude.

i cant breathe. flu kills..
got lots of thigns to do and plan. wonder when i'll get a break.... .....

lostttt

2005-03-08T19:29:00.000+08:00

i lost it!!
harh!! my phone... =@
whoever took it better pray and repent la!
suan le.
now so many ppl are calling up my house to look for me
i am so un-contactable.. =(

working on my strategy to mugg for my Os!!
haha.. gonna throw away my bed and cupboard
they take up far too much space

gonna buy new table! and boxes!!
and rings for my ws!!
my mum dun believe i can survive in JC
oh wellSss...

feeling very flu-ish now
actually okae one.
i guess too many ppl were scolding me on monday
when i went out with geok, fish, C.ps, koonyew and xingjie
i keept sneezing!! cos ppl were soclding me
guess i sneezed too much..
TP is so nice! haha.. NAFA is soo artie farrtieee...

RedRain is coming!!!
i've got tix!! who wants???

Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh not I,
I will survive
Yeah
As long as I know how to love,
I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive,
I will survive....

Red Rain~

2005-03-05T21:27:00.000+08:00

Red Rain is in town... NOW!!

burrrthdaee!!!

2005-02-06T21:12:00.001+08:00

YAY!
it was such an awesome bday for me!!
how i wish everyday is my burrthdaeee laRr~ herherrr..
den i get potato buffet everyday!! yeepppiiieee!! =D
and i betcha such bday celebration doesnt cum by easily alrightSss~
cos i plan them and i always feel so horrible
haha.. but after seeing it turn out well and everything everything's worth it (:
and!! after feeling how it its like to be celebrated, it is totally cool
i am motivated to make good bday for my team ppl as a BIC
herherrr...
but why not let seetoh be the BIC since she's so good at it right?
=p (altho i AM better!!! ;p)
and leonard's team so big now and i heard i'm still the BIC.
means almost every month got bday to plan
hahahaha~ wish me good luck
my burrthdaeee wish is to hit 20 for YT and 5 for myself
u towniesss better work hard man~
and i heard 4 bday songs tis burrthdaee!! kewlll!
and finally...
i wanna dedicate my speciall thankssss....

TO!
PeiShan!!
thanks for the wonderful planning and i knoe all your pains dun worry.. =p it is great and i think it rawks totally altho u might think there are crop ups here and there but overall i think its a great success! thanks!! =D

TO!
Samantha!!
thanks for the bday thingy as well, i think it rocks totally and i am vr touched to knoe tat u personally went in to plan it cos u are already so busy as it is. thanks for everything! =)
( and choosing such a classy cake for me! Angie the Choice sia!! =D)

TO!
Leonard!!
the nice speech. hehee.. and yes for ur guidance!!

TO!
Jianming!!
thanks for the sounds.. hehe.. saw u facing some difficulties at first. hehe.. but yes! hallelujah it was solved in the end. thankieww~

TO!
Chewting!!
again, the planning as well altho i heard bout your want for fruit cake!! =@hehhe.. ya la~ in e end is chocolate so u lost =p altho i aint skinny but i dun think i'll die from being too fat for eating chocolate!! heh heh... but still, thanks! and u seemed more touched den me. hohoho...

TO!
Nigel!!
for the nice baked potato. hehee.. u are quite good at it! yummieee~
(but i'm still the best when it cums to potato!! =D)

TO!
Jing Jing!!
thanks for the reli nice notebook and card! its reli nice and i promise u i'll use it wisely. ((:

TO!
my TEAM!!
thanks all, Lynnette Tham, chan peishan, cecelia, jingjing, grace, rachel, runqi, sinhui,.. for celebrating it with me.. its reli great to have u guys in the same team. love u guys~
(and the ReD Billabong pencil case simply rawkSs!! thanks A LOT!! i mean it~)

TO!
Jonathan!!
thanks for pushing the cake out~ hahaha...it was nice.. and the cake is vr vr nice too. =)

TO!
Rendar & Victor and all the other spectators!
thanks for adding to the atmosphere. hehehe.. for the happy bday songs. hahaha..

TO!
EVERYBODY!!
for wishing me such great and awesome happy bdays.. esp those who wrote me testimonials in friendster.. like my cousin michelle, wenhong, deena, yvonne and kuanyi!! and slim pig who held my head til i guessed who she was.. (:

TO!
ZhengWay and Jason!!
for the nice ice cream and i chose the most expensive one~ hehehe.. yea! it was nice la~ haha thanks a lot!

haha yar... i think i missed out some ppl? i dunno.. i reli apologise la~ haha.. but i reli thank all u guys out there who made tis burrthdaee so great for me. and i am finally 16!!
i wld say i reli lurrrve the potato buffet..hohoho.. baked potato, mashed potato, potato chips, fries... all kinds of POTATO!!! I LURRVE THEM!!
and the warmed chocolate cake was so awesome!! i seriously think it rawks to the max man.. i'll buy it and warm it and eat it myself. but i am afraid u guys will end up seeing 2 jiayiS. hehe.. =p

yea~ overall i reli thank all u guys!! lurrve all of u. ((:
*sweet sixteen~*

haha`

2005-02-06T21:12:00.000+08:00

tuition is starting
SOW is starting too
potato still rawksss
and now sammm is talkin bout my potato
hmm.. *yummy*
i think i am going down to church everyday
except monday since church is closed
xcept thursday since i have Pe til 6+
yar. to do hw. hehehe
yar cum church find me bahhh
and accompany me ((:

which would u choose.. ..

2005-01-31T14:42:00.000+08:00

someone who supports u from behind...

or someone who lends a helping hand from the front??

for me....

i choose....

the...

first

...

2005-01-22T01:09:00.000+08:00

i'm entering into a new phase whereby bloggerSs stoppp blogging

i've had enuff`

2005-01-16T01:34:00.000+08:00

i only do things i find a reason in

tats y i m doing wad i m doing now

and tats why i didnt do wad i didnt do

if u get wad i mean, great

if u dun, u got to knoe me better

but well, seriously, its alright.

doubts are surfacing

i aint fading

i've got my life

character

decision

precison

plannnns

mentality

logic 'J'

`signed offffffff

ponnnn-ed`

2005-01-11T13:00:00.000+08:00

ahaha pon sch todae~
cos too tired le.. cos of tt stoooopid paul
broke his promise!! hmph..

i not going sch anymore le cos zengan oso nv go
den got ppl pei wo go take tests le mahh
hahaha...
wad a great mind God has blessed me wif =p

alright alright... gotta get down to business!
oh wellss.. study rule is beginning!!!
but it doesnt affect me. cos its like so easy
2 hr a day.. haha...
tat clsrm uncle better lock clsrm a bit later la!!

i think i am finally on track le.
finished my homework..
later do le maths jiu hao le..
den finish up the tests..
woohoo!!

SOW is cuming..
i dunno wad to join la.. haiyo...
bible study starting!!! hahaha..
go on friday nighttt... kewl!!
and got PA meeting! ahhaa
finally bring in PA i am doing smthing liao
always see all the PA running here and there
den i lyk so free and dunno wads going on
lol.. its gonna be a new beginning man!!

and oh yay!
i am taking the schoo-ooo-oollll!!
hehehe...
now got me peishan chewting nainai cecelia lyn
gonna get back ziqi!!
can one... altho she is quite hard hearted.
hmmm... He shall soften her heart ((:

my team gonna grow man~ hahaha
altho its lyk quite problematic now... but..
i believe everything will be alright!!
hard hearted and r/s...
peeeeeeeanuttts!!
(tis souns like pee-a-nut. how do we pee out a nut? lol... =p)

i can see la. whole lot of hoGc ppl sitting together in canteen
gonna make the peeps in my clique cum! (:
and we will take ytss with one swop...
.....
...
..
.
..
...
.....

for Him ((:*

slacking`

2005-01-05T19:49:00.000+08:00

i am suppose to be studying but i am blogging
short one.
i cant breathe!!! argh!!
the hw is killing meee.. cant even find tym to go down to church. diao~
rushng 2004 undone work plus tis yr's work
they are jus too much
i got so many tests cuming up.. it has went up to bout ard 6 tests already
tml SS test!! next week english and physics test...
argh..

*drowning*

school startsss`

2005-01-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

hahaha.. school started. it isnt as bad as i thot it to be, tho =)
alrighttss.. where shld i start.
i should be doing bio or chem now, but i left my chem ws in sch and i haven done my ten chapters of bio tys. hmmm... but nvm! tml no chem, no bio! ((((: (like double chinned smiles =p)
so i slack a bit todae.. since tml start sch at 750 oso. hahaa... but i noe i shldnt. *.*
watched naruto the whole night!! die arh. slack too much liao. but i cant stop watching once i start to... hohoho.. but lucky i finished my e and a math in sch.

alrights.. to start it off, lemme tok bout my subj.
A math!! as disgusting as ever. first day i kena scolding and was made to stand.
over a piece of homework from 2004. dumbo teacher dumbo actions.
he threatened to not register me for O level jus cos of a math. lolx.. he think i stupid arh? not even ghost will believe him.. so toot. and so unfortunate for me, he is my A & E math teacher!!! argh~~~!!
well.. suan le. hu cares bout him la. threaten me but i dun feel threaten at all. i smile and he scold me oso.. hahaha.. he is truely dumb. highly irritating too.
BIO! hahaa.. trying to catch up my sec 3 work now. nv too late!! so i trying to read my bio text. and i realise smthing. out of everything, i knoe a bit bout the vascular bundle, a bit out the heart (the arterioles ventricle and stuff) a bit bout homeostasis (hair folicles!!) and bout excretion (kidneys??). ya. tats all. and she teach eyes le i oso didnt knoe. haiyoo.. jialat..
haven reli start sch and already got 3 tests cuming up tis week and next week.

reli lurrve sec 4 life!! so free.. haha.. like senior liao, no need look at senior's face.
not see junior feel lyk slaping them. as annoying as ever la.
now sec 4 le! O level student!! hhehehee
so, the highly and suprendously irritating sec 3s came to my cls and sat and tok loudly after sch.
while we were sitting in cls doing our hw quietly. they were talking loudly! *dumbooos* got real pissed off. and ordered my fren to shoooo them off. and i said, "wahlao, we sec 4 take O level wad they knoe? make so much noise. go back to their level 2 la!!" lol.. i lurrve using O level to weigh them... hahhaa.. seriously they belong to level 2 wad they doing at level 4. dumbo. wun paiseh de meh.... -.- reli hate those lower sec. highly irritating bunch of dumboSss... even tho they sec 3 i still count them as lower sec. cos they have such a childish mentality. i dun care wheether we were liek them. the thing is they sux la! =p and having recess wif them is so... bleahx. can vomit blood. they shld jus all go eat poo....

yeA~reli got mood to study. all the talk the teachers giving... haha.
totally in the mood to mugggg
cool huh?? once in a lifetime experience.
but i am quite sure tis feeling wun last. =X

anywyaSss... our team got more ppl le!! hehe..
*yea! celebrate!!*
but den.. i realise tat there are missing ppl too..
tis jus brings me back to the matthew chapter on the parable of the lost sheep.
hmm.. where are they??
regulars..
integration..
ev..
and sch started! its back to teh battle field. =D
successfully invited ziqi to church tis sunday!! hehehe
she was the first person i used my invite card on
trying to get back doris..
aint gonna slacken in any areas of my life jus cos i am sec 4!
still lurrrving ppl and praising Him.
yar. reli got a lot of things to do...
from buying new books to doing unfinished hw..
and getting finished hw..
gotta go church!!
looking forward to the combined service..
aww.. why isnt anyone toking to me online?!
arghhh..

wow.. long long entry. anyway i feel lyk i am back to sec 1.
teh feeling vr new and cold too..
*chillSss*
hehee.. yea! slp lohhhh
tired out!

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ *winkxx* nightSsssss....*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

motivated`

2005-01-02T13:48:00.000+08:00

and the heart awards totally motivates me to spurrr on
i finally got one sheep le!!
but tats not enuff
hehee. i wan to have sheeps i 'catch' myself
hahaha... yes. gonna grow my team!!!
hehehe.. i am aiming for 3 now
now got one.
have to add first!!
den can multiply.
hehehe... yea~
grow my teammmmm

blast` off````

after so longgg`

2005-01-02T13:36:00.000+08:00

after so long i am finally blogging!
diao~ the death toll went up again
i lost count!!!

anyway heart awards was funnn
hehhe.. sat at the back. kinda know everything tats gonna happen
tis makes it even funnie. hehehe
poppers!! geok gave me lots of it
and i slept and eat the whole day after tt
anyway i lurrrve my dressing tt day
lurrve it
so prettieeee~ ;p
hahaha.. i am too self obsessed

hmphhh.. later gonna meet up at yishun wif team
arghhh
ppl are always late. and i mean real late
til the extend we gonna be late for service den they will appear
kind of irritating u knoe?
it seems to run in the team
even i myself am late smtimes i admit =X
but i dun think i am late to the extend tt everyone has to wait for me okk
so fun huh
bleahxxx

sheep sheep sheep
sheepeddddd
=) i'll take it (=

continue`

2004-12-28T21:28:00.000+08:00

okae. so she wanna use when she finish bathing. shall add on to wad i wanna saeee

some ppl say the earthquake is to reduce the earth's population. some ppl say it hit the malay malay muslim muslim places cos God wans them to knoe tat He is real. but den why would God wan to reduce world population?? lol...

some ppl have no life lar. cant stand it.. getting so devoted to their cca and council. diao~ its lyk. its gonna end when u graduate lar!! dun be lame lor. duh! feel like slapping them awake. no life arh. whole life revolve in sch stuff.. so dumb. esp my sch council arh.. haha.. so lame lor. council is totally corrupted and lame and boring and dumb and yet there are ppl who lurrrve it like siao.. diao~ diao~ diao~ council is the last thing i think is even exciting la. compare to now! i used to lyk council like poo too. hahaa.. but now... i lurrrve my life. its not bout studying but saving lives and getting souls saved!! wad can be more meaningful den tis? seeing ppl receiving blessings and God into their life.. i think its the life anyone and everyone can ask for.. living for God is the most and best way to live life!

i am looking forward to the day i get married! ahha. gonna be tis purrrfect guy God chose for me. ((:
also.. looking forward to the day i die! den i can join my Father in heaven...
i jus agreee wif lyn. hu wanna die like in an accident or in an earthquake! it has no meaning at all.. being matyrrrredddd seems to be so scary. but i'll fight it. i'll face it.. for You.
but die cos of old age oso good. hehee.. b4 she starts coplaining.. better go offline! looking forward to thursday and friday!!

*i'm pretttieeeeeeeee!* ^.->

some stuff`

2004-12-28T21:02:00.000+08:00

haiyooo.. did u guys read the papers or watch the news?! the recent earth quake which hit SEA... its so horrible.. bout more than 10,000 deathSsss and its still on the rise.. its so terrible. 10,000 unsaved souls dead. tis reli hit me and it jus spurrs me to seek the lost. i mean... think bout it. if u are God how would u feel? so many dead... and mostly were kids and old ones.. KIDS! so young..

well, tis brings me to the story which i t0old peishan.. haha. we were walking outside plaza sing and it was reli crowded and we were having difficulty walking thru the crowd. we were toking bout some bad integration cases and got even more pissed. hahaha.. and den, i suddenly thot of this analogy. if all saved souls is shining and bright while the unsaved are dark and shadowed, wad would the view be lyk from heaven, from God's view? wad would he seE? if there are little ppl being saved, it would be a whole area of shadows wif a few bright ones (like me and her!) shining here and there. how would u feel? dun u feel saD? but, wads worst is when u see.. the bright ones going dimmer and dimmer, til they BS and finally lost the glow. again, wouldnt it hurt u so much to see the light growing dimmer and dimmer?? tis jus tells me to reach out to the unsaved and the ppl who are dropping. one of the ppl frm my big team seems to be BS-ing. he isnt in my direct team so i dunno wad happened. and i dunno whether he is cumign back. reli hope tat his leader will pull him back.. i'll pray for him! ((: again! when we sow a seed in them and at the point when they put their hands on their heart to accept Christ.. they start to glow. dim dim glow. and as days past! they begin to shine brighter and brighter. hehehe.. if i am God, i think i'll smile the whole day. =D

alrighttt.. enuff of tat! hahaha... currently trying hard to rise up to be a leader. and first obstacle! integration.. gotta overcome my barrier. hmmm... its hard. so now kinda stuck. now my sis's back and i cant bloGg! tats irritating. )):

better than life`

2004-12-27T19:47:00.000+08:00

Better than the riches of this world,
Better than the sound of my friends' voices,
Better than the biggest dreams in my heart,
And that's just the start...

Better than getting what I say I need,
Better than living the life that I wan't to,
Better than the love anyone could give,
Your love is...

You hold me now in Your arms and never let me go...

And You oh Lord made the sunshine,
The moonlight and the nightsky.
You give me breath and all Your Love,
I give my life to You because...

I can't stop falling in love with You,
I'll never stop falling in love with You.
I can't stop falling in love with You,
I'll never stop falling in love with You.

woohoo.. lurrrve tis songgg!! ((:

merry x'mas`

2004-12-25T13:21:00.000+08:00

hahaha.. todae is x'mas!!
gave thirty over presents out. tho they arent exactly valuable. haha
but got my heart inside so u guys better appreciate!! ;p
oh yar! i received so many many many presents!
reli all my thanks goo out to them larr...

PeishanST: thanks for supporting financially. haha..
Sam and Leo: thanksssss alotttttt for tt nice present!! best gift i received! betcha i'll wear tt for heart awards!! ^.->
Joycelyn: thanks for ur flower! tho its not ReD, i still lurve it the way it is!
Jing: thanks for the glow in the dark bible verse-d key chain! its so nice~
Cecelia: thanks for the watch! and for being my number one x'mas gift!! =D such a nice watch! i am wearing it now~
Geok`: tat cup!! i lurrve it, the messages on it! yes u are u are vr impt to me tooooo!! =D
Huiling: thanks for the chocolates!!
Koonyew: wah! u are sooo sweet!! wad a nice flower and the roche! i think it cost u a bomb. but its worth it cos u gave one to meeee! yayy~~
Lyn seow: thanks for tt cuttteeee note bk! promise ya i'll use it okie? lurrve ya!
Chewting and nainai: i dunno wad u 2 gonna gimme. but thanks! cos i knoe u'll gimme today. hehehe.. and i knoe its nth bad!! dun disappoint me
Jianming: for the card which i gonna receive!! haha..
my twins!: thanks for tt cute card and happy hse hp thingy!! its soo nice! mark my words tt it'll be on my hp as long as it can last!
stps mum: many thanks to her for the x'mas present! i didnt expect anything from her! whoo~ imagine ur fren's mum giving u x'mas pressent. betcha be shocked!
Bryan: thanks for the card!! hahaa.. i have it beside me nowwwww (:
Laiting: thanks for tt red lil' cute bear!!
huimin: thanks for the chocolates! they taste niceee.. =D
Jacky: thankssss for tt lollipop!! i lurrve themm.. hehehe ((:
Gang yuan: thanks for that Dove chocolate!! its melting in my mouth now.. hehehe..
Zhengway: thanks for tt sweet and big and long candy barrrr!! hehee.. i dun think i can finish it at one go tho. =p
Winnie: thanks for ur yummies chocolates and corn roll!!! hehe... i'll enjoy eating themmmm! =p

bored`

2004-12-22T17:56:00.000+08:00

i am totally bored
super duper bored
at home... rotting
cos i cant go church everyday cos my mum lurrrves me sooo much
haha.. she is so not happy to see me gone everyday
and reaching home so late!!
hahha yeap its my fault.
cos i enjoy taking tt 2 hr bus ride!!
hehehehe ((:
yea....

hohoho...
MERRY X'MAS!!
its the season to celebrate! =D

yea.. & spend money.
haha.. on pressiesss
buying for my team ppl and my nu erSss.. haha
but i dunno wad to buy!! and the money!
haha.. i'll jus fast for the rest of the month. hhehe
reception is so cool. i still am lurrrrving it!
how i wish i m in church. *sighhhhh*
but i can hear the church noises.... hohohooo..
(tats suppose to make me even sadder)
oh welllssss... going to buy x'mas gifts tml!!!
ikea! hahaha.. geok geok i cant wait to meet up wif u.. lol
jus wanna go out.. out..

muahaha`

2004-12-21T11:44:00.000+08:00

ehhe.. i rebonded my hair!! arghhh..
hahaha.. but i hate it now, cos it looks so flat!!
i am right now in church, as usual.. hehe..
rushing my hw!! so tt i can enjoy my x'mas and count down
hate those hw. dunno wads the point.
cos i am lyk copyign straight from the answer???
haha. yeshhh..
but i think i will be doing reception??
i dunno... i jus wanna do finish my hw!
xmas is cuming heart awards is cumign and i no money buy clothes..
big prob!! ppl present and pastor present how.
haha.. dun care. things will work its way out for me one
jus lyk how it has always been!!
i actually dreamt tt my mummie was selling pork??
haiyooo.. crapp sia..!
and got 4 digit! 5400! haha..
scarly it cum out first arh, i can buy clothes til siao
provided i got buy 4d
hehehe..
heard my com at home hao le. dunno true or not
came up wif a plan wif my sis..
we alternate weeks take odd and even days
cos she say if i take odd not fair i got one more day
haix. she is so sickening...

oOo0o...

2004-12-18T13:51:00.000+08:00

argh.. tis is lame. i am blogging in church!
so diao one. jiaming can use recep com do so many thigns i cant.
arghh. suan le.
i cant believe it.
tis is teh first holiday tt went by so fast!!
reli like in e blink of an eye arh, its over.
and its not a good thing!!
2 weeks gonna fly by agian and sch opens,
i die in my teachers' hands.
cos i got so much untouched hw.
and i dun plan to do anything... hahahaa...
HE LLO! -yo
okae.. tats the evil twin. hahaha...
cos i am blogging in church and she came to visit me.
i lurrrve the next 2 cuming weeks. hehe
but i hate the period after tt!!!
HATE IT.
sch's start and i'm stuck!

hehehe`

2004-12-17T13:17:00.000+08:00

hah.. back from church camp.
long tym no blog cos com had an internal explosionnnn
it exploded ionternally aNd i heard there was sparks!!
so.. my com crashed.
therefore! i am in church using the com now.. hehehe..
trying to find out my unknown friendster friends.....
two more weeks left to teh new year! i mean when school reopens...
bad bad bad newsss
i dun wan to attend schoool!!
i dun lyk school. cos...
when school reopens, i am sec 4!! can u believe it.
so fast. i can still rmb my first day in ytss..
as a sec 1 thinking when will i be in sec 4.
and now i am gonna be a sec 4 vr vr soon.
and i definitely dun wan to be!!
cos... holiday assignments. tons of them. haven touch yet.
nvm. my daughters will savee meeeeeeeeee
hehe.. and and!! when school opens, i cant cum church as much le..
cos everyday sure sch til so late in the evening!
i dun lyk. i dun wan. i hate it!
for now, i bet 2 weeks will flyyyy byyyyyyyyyyyy
yes it will.. next week xmas! den its heart awards!
and sch starts...
arghhh.. tis is the best holiday i've had!
the fastest flying one tooooooooo
whahaha~ i like boiiiis. i still lurrrrrrrve them

tuesday`

2004-12-07T21:11:00.000+08:00

todae is tuesday. hehee..
went down to new church again. cool~
it jus gets nicer day by day!
the red lights are upp!! =)
i think tml nv go at home sure bored de
den thursday go everything's gonna be ready le!!
cos friday opening. hehee..

thur recep test test
fri open!
sat i on duty!
sunday too!!
hehe.. but!
clothes howww.. die le.
cant buy new ones oso...
haiyah.. heck care. hehee..

feeling kinda tired
still got the number tags to settle
all e lamionation and stuff..
hmm.. gotta rush.
bye~

new church`

2004-12-06T22:50:00.000+08:00

wow.. u guys wun believe tis. the new church totally rawkkkk..
the stage!! the worship leader gonna be so happie when they see it!
the place where they are gonna stand is going to rawk totally..
the light tt move wif the rhythm of the music~
the smoke machine!!
whhoooo~ u're gonna be blown away..

pretty busy with reception stuff..
but happily busy! hehe..
friday doing recep.. sat doing recep.. sunday doing recep..
tml recep.. thur recep..
only wednesday free!!
argh~ mum's gonna kill meeeee
i think i better learn to shrink my stomach
so tt i dun have to eat a lot
hahaha.. so have more money to spare..
owe my sis $10.. jing $5..
haiyo.. die arh.. den wan buy shirt oso cant..
shall have a financial break thru!!
bleahxx..
hate money so much
its a need not a want
so i always say i NEED money..
and i want cos i need.
hmm..
lurrve myself to the core.
=))

quizz`

2004-12-06T22:44:00.000+08:00

a quiz after such a longg time!!
ripped it off cindy's bloGg.. =D

receptionnn`

2004-12-06T01:33:00.000+08:00

hehee... reception tis word has never interests me tis much b4.
getting soooo xcited bout it!
i knoe it isnt gonna be easy. sure kena discipled by jianming one day. maybe even pastor?? i dunno.. but i still wanna do it! cos its gonna be so cool. hha...
$1000 switch?! whahaha~
reception rawkKkk my woRLdd!

and den yeap.. did so many things and went down to church so many times..
ever since vbs started? yarr..
and my mother is starting to nag. * poo! *
she isnt reli happiee i am going church every other day
oh well.. cos i always end up going home late
haha.. but she always lidat de.
N-A-T-O <-- up to u to guess
no laRr.. best is no action. if got i dunno how
no church i die lar. live le oso meaningless
hol hw.. away with u! =p
i'll jus be a good ger and help her take care of tis reli cute and adorable babie she's gonna start loooking after tis cuming week.. hehe.. i lurrrrve babiesss anywayyy! (:

cant wait for tuesday's meeting!!
cant wait to know my recep ppl!!
cant wait to rAwk the counter!!
cant wait to get started!!
cant wait for sunday!!

toOoo the C-I-T-Y!!!
*CheErSsss!!*
^.->

plus oneee`

2004-12-03T14:34:00.000+08:00

recently so many things happened... church is moving! reception is starting! ytss is back to fight again! the team is growing!! oh well... so much so much!!
but for all of these things tt made up my fulfilled life which has made me so blessed and happie.. i give my thanks to my Lord. ((:

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I just know that i've never felt like this
and i know it's because
You exist in my life
like hope shining bright
through the stormy skies

and that's why
i could never turn away from You
i'd be some kind of fool
to think i could lose Your Love
You know that's
something i can't do

'Cause Your the answer
to the question
the reason to the rhyme
You're the rhythm to my heart
when it beats out of time
i'm so thankful, Lord
that You are mine
it's true
that You are my soul tattoo

Lord, You know
all that i want to do
is to spend my life loving You
it's Your Love time and again
that pulls me through
and i want to say thankYou!

Etched on my soul
Your Love is so true
always in my heart
in Your arms forever
stamped forever
here in my soul

((:

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dont u guys jus agree wif me??
hehe.. no i can never ever write such a wonderful poem.
hehehe... cos its a lyrics for a song!!!
plus one = jia(1) yi(1)
so in another words its my song larrr!
hehee.. plus one.. i love them! their song rawKkss...
tis is song is soul tatto!
its doesnt sound all holy and churchy at all..
its jus such a great song!
wanna have it?
ask me send to u bahhh..
i would love to share it wif u guys!!
=D had 12 hrs of slp so i am completely refreshed now!
rawk onn guys!
ytss! take the school!

beautiful dayyy`

2004-12-01T14:04:00.000+08:00

as u guys can see, its a beautiful day!! not just cos peishan is back, but that.. i am really touched and glad to see that she finally got wad i was driving at for the past month.
when she came back, i got a complete shock laRr! becum dark dark orh orh liao, den got light cosmetics on her face oso!! haiyo.. she say she wan crazy for a few days. haha.. so farrrnniee laRr! den she was heavy with accessories. but den lata at my hse she took off one and i gained one. cos they didnt match well.. hehe. =p and her wek bian da liao!! she eats much faster and even ate from my plate after completing her feast!! she is getting used to the perth huge serving liao.. heh heh... and perth so cool lar! ppl there no need work govt giv them money. cool~ btu she bought a nice roxy bagg for me! wahhaa~ she loves me toooo muchhh cant blame! all the rest of u jus be glad wif chocs bahhh!! ^.^>
yea.. we met up immediately after i left lyn's hse. and saw her dressed up nice and all while i was wearing three quarters only. haha.. den went lj to eat lunch (she treat!) and den went to my hse. hehehe.. den i dunno why, i started to tok to her bout dal. serious tok. i jus got tis vr vr angry frustration and all along i nv tok to her nor tell her what i really feel as it would surely hurt her. but todae i could not care liao. i jus started the talk and i dun even knoe whether i was telling her off or not. i said all tt i knoe which she did not knoe and wad dal told me b4. of cos she was quite sad laRr.. but i feel tt she shld knoe and get over it fast and soon and not drag on. seeing her getting involved in a worthless and tiring r/s makes me feel so sad yet there was nth much i cld do to help. but ytd i had tis reli strong urge to jus tell her everything. i was quite blunt and i jus wanna let the idea get across to her. sure enough, she was starting to see things the way i want her to see it. and somehow, she was finally figuring things out and not sunken in that cannot-dun-have-him situation. after the movie, we talked quite a while at the bus interchange wif dar too. dar and i told her how we feel bout tis and encouraged her to get over him. wad help is there if she continues with it?? she gets deeper and deeper and den it jus makes it even harder and hurting to end it as days passes by. and i am sure me and dar will both be there physically for her while God will support her emotionally and help her get over it! all things are possible.. .. when she finally xiang tong le.. i felt so *phew~* after so long of trying to get tis idea across to her! hehe.. my prayers work wonders! ahha.. i was jus praying tt day tt when she come back it will be a new start lor.. wow.. tis is so cool! another thing was tt it all happened on e same day! how dal hinted how i had e urge to tok to her and how shan found out bout wad he did... tis is so feakin scary if its all coincidental..
and finally! teh fire in her is starting to burn again. last tym she wld jus say haiya so boring lar, u so involved good lor, vr siann arh.. sian arh.. but also, i got pissed off by her wanting to give up way of thinking and looking at things. got once i was so pissed off i simply cut her and asked to stop saying tt. i think she was quite shocked. and i started to give another serious talk laRr.. ytd peishan reli kena a lot from me sia. haha.. cos we shld all see things in a more positive view and she was actually quite pessimistic. so i sort of told her in a harsh manner i guess. and she was quite fed up i cld see as she jus stared at the com screen, not even replying to wad i was saying. but luckily!! all these didnt go down e drain. she still heard wad i say and thank God, she started to get my point too. at the end of the day, she was ready to fight!! hahahaha.. instead of simply giving up, she totally change and she was ready to change herself for e better. believe she'll get to leonard real soon! haha.. tis is so cool. i am quite sure all these aint jus coincidental. its smthing from Him and God is making a change in her. i believe in jus a few days time she will be onfire again! esp with the church camp oso!! i jus cant wait.. cant wait for her to rise up and fight alongside with me. ((:
its such a blessing to know this and that peishan is finally figuring things out. i believe she will be a great leader and one day she will be telling ppl and helping ppl who face the same prob which she jus got over. on my part, i am glad what i said made sense altho they werent nice things to hear. as the chinese saying goes, zhong yan ni er.. means advice tat are given are painful to the ears. reli glad she did not see wad i say as smthing to spite her and she did not feel even angrier. cos i knoe she knoe tat i knoe wad she is feeling. hhaha.. chim sia.. dunno wad she will say if she see tis blogg entry. but wellsss.. i cant control. hahaa.. this is it!! a new beginning for her and me too! in e new church!! woohoo~ haha.. ytd night i slept vr well. cos me her and dar chat til morning. hahaha. til 0606.. i rmb! arent we cool? hehe. =p

2004-11-30T02:20:00.000+08:00

yea. quick entrieee
now at lyn's hse!!
after watching shutter..
b4 watching shutter, we ate at lyn's hse..
her recipe of campbell soup and macaroni
and this japanese peas!!
haha.. den watched shutter screamed like mad wif ying!
lyn was luffing!! shes weird..
reli gotta rush tis bloGg..
den nwo at lyn's hse stayover...
after much effort in persuading her parents pastors and leonard!!
i dun lyke leonard! bleahXxx...
now we craving for fries...
leonard ask us go 800+ buy!!
i dun mind but well..
dun let down lyn's father down..
its great tt he let us stayover le!
todae packed church.. rawkSs totally!
go to level four staircase there see red and blue stacked layers??
its done by me peishan huiling and huiping!!
tie til wan to die arh..
pack til church empty empty le...
peishan came back todae!
and she said only chewting remembered her
for poo sake i sms-ed her a few days back laRr..
and i oso knoe when she cuming back
and again for poo sake it was me who tell chewting and teh rest laRr
go eat ppooooo and die!! :@
but well.. she missed out quite alot..

reli looking forward to thurday!!
having meeting with pasdtor. hahaa..
at new church!!! can u believe it!!
oh wellSss..
nigel's back from camp!!
peishan's back from perth!!
now ytss got ppl again le..
reli gtg...
buaiZz!!

2004-11-27T23:53:00.000+08:00

ooh wellSss..
my emotions are so jumbled upppp
ytd learnt an impt lesson
to plan everything b4 hand
reli plan and carry out and not all in e head only
haix.. learn the precious lesson
haha.. wun ever make the same stupid mistake laRr..
being descipled aint farrrnnn okie..
hah hah hah..
den in e end cos of tt thot of the whole thing the whole night
last tym i look at my clock was 0637 in e morning
didnt knoe wad tym i slp.
woke up at 9+.. eyes were quite weird looking larr
severe lack of slp.. 2 weeks le
eq damn low.. cant seem to control my emotion
easily agitated frustrated and depressed
haiyo.. gotta stop being so emotionally led
after sunday, next week can relac le!! woohoo!
cant wait!!

after tis week church is moving!!
*clappSss* *woooohh~~!*
hehehe.. ReD!! GrEen!!
sooo exciting laRr.. each chair cost so much liao
sit le sure vr comfy de! haha.. =p

and den next thing is tuesday go watch movie!!
wif my daughterSss...((:
den thursday got meeting in new church!!
whahaha~ so faRnn.. cant waitttt!
and oh yar!! heard from cg i am in reception le!
kewllll!! pst is so kind to me. hehehe. =O
see? next week's gonna rawk wif the moving and stuff..
den last service!! in tt packed room.
gonna be a long tym b4 we can feel e pack-ness again
reli gotta feel it once and for all! haha..
den x'mas den countdown den heart awards!!
so exciting.. (so surprised to be a nominee!)
"qing tou wo yi piao!" the pap thing keep repeating in my head..
cos its a voting system.
tis holiday's so exciting but thank GoD He gave me a strong heart
but i aint got a do-hw-machine
hw how!? sickening.
wait til peishan cum back den farn lar. hahaa
den all die together

shutter!! meeting!! new church!! x'mas!! countdown!!
.
..
...
..... most importantly...
...
..
.
10!! ytss hit TEN!!

"I'm CominGgggg!!!"

oh well

2004-11-26T22:14:00.000+08:00

oh wellSss...
3 b'day a weekend. torturing
cakes and cakes! its filling up my head mind and brain
why not my tummy instead neh~

BIC bu ho dang
but hah hah.. i am enjoying the torture
i reli wanna slp til i shuang
but cant
going church for 5 consecutive days!
kewllll~
oh wellSs.. jus hope everything turns out well

been reflecting on myself
feel tt i am praying so lil'
=X
no wonder
i love my guitar again laRr
hahaa.. playing when u say nth at all on my guitar
if only i have a room to myself
duh~ so toot..
donate a room to me bahhh!

no wonder cant seem to invite many ppl
and i must have sounded irritating and pestering them
cos.. i admit tt i have been relying on myself too much
no wonder it doesnt work out
God! ni zai tian zi ling jiu bao you wo bah!!!
hehehee.. =p
ten. i'm cuming.

"i'm cominGggg~!"

2004-11-25T21:40:00.000+08:00

as if tis 2 weeks aint busy enuff
and i am suffering from the lack of slp.
arh
and its not lyk all these aint bad enuff
den happily at e end of the day cum online
see such weird ppl taGging me
seriously, christians have emotions too okaeSss
i think since u knoe sam is my leader
u are probably from the same church lar?
den u shld be a christian too i guesS??
den since u are a christian,
do u get angry??
if u dun i salute u!!

i dunno why u taGg such stuff lar
i didnt knoe i was being spiritual and stuff
and if in anyway i have offended u
which i dunno how
i.. apologise?
nahXx.. i still cant bring myself to do tt
cos apparently i havent been blogging lots bout my spiritual life!!
i think i blog more bout guys, church and peishan~
so i dunno whether tis is my problem or wad
i think u simply have something against me?
u bear a grudge against me?
i dunno
but wellSs..
wadever
anyway i have told sam.
telling leonard
i aint scared of letting them know i got angry
hah hah hah
*shrugGgSss*

2004-11-25T01:36:00.000+08:00

peishan i miss youuuuu!!!
argh. i oso wan to bring u home laR! at least u can see those ang mohs on e streets!
i cant.. dotx dotx... and i got to go church myself tml!!

whoever tat sucker is, tat O in who taGged me, wun u jus get a life?
dammit. dun even dare to let urself be known.
dun so shit up can or not?
anyway tis is MY bloGg.
u get it not? MINE.
improve ur english pls
cos apparently u dun understand tat tis is MY Blogg laRr
means i can bloGg wadever i wan
u get it?
betcha fail english lAr.
after will still got 'S' somemore
cos u are such an ASS lar.
love 'S' so much.
jus go eat shit and die yar?
ask for repentence?
i think u need it more lar dude
anyway u also say tis is MY LIFE wad
MY spiritual LIFE
u nto happy dun read lor
u are probably a uni cellular organism lar
no brains to think oso.
not happy arh? dun read lor
dun pollute and vandalise my taGg board lar
dun wanna get involved wif an ass like u
*editted* (tis O is from the same church)

peishan if u here den great lar
can scold tis freaky ass wif me
hahaha..
and pst say so many thigns i wanna comment on it to u oso cant
watch video oso cant tok to u
hahaha.. pray in perth oso arh!! hehee..
and yesh i miss u like siao lAr.
normally nv part for more den 12hrs
now yi zou jiu zou one week!
hope to see u soon. better buy somethign nice for me!

2004-11-23T19:21:00.000+08:00

an idle mind is e devil's workshop
hahaa.. my mind is super duper idle now
dunno why ppl like ps2
i play e game oso no kick one.. haix..
fun is fun lar. but doesnt satisfy me
now i am still hell bored
i need to so things!
or else i will suffer depression
like now lor
vr siannn

ROnAn keAting raWkks man..
reli looovveeee him.
i'm not coveting here ar!
haha... i can still control my emotions
he is my idol.
sly is singapore idLe. haha...

i wan someone like ronan keating to be my husband lar!
he is well known as mr good guy in his industry
and his song oso dedicate to his wife one
altho he is married 5 yrs to his wife,
he still love her like its e first day!
wow.. how wonderful!!
and not to forget his green eyes!!
wow.. so so so attractive
reli like his face. vr charming
and his voice.
wooh~ totally blow me off lar.
when he was 23 i rmb the mag featured him
i didnt like him
they said he was 23 yrs old
and i laughed like mad
cos obviously he look like a 33 instead!!
but turned out tt he is reli 23!
haha.. now he becum so shuai le reli look like 26.
i shall pray every night i get someone like him next tym~
haha... not only like him
maybe even better! wahhaa~
okie~ off to my fantasy world~
* vanished! *

2004-11-23T13:37:00.000+08:00

i think ppl shld learn to reply sms.
peishan i'm not toking bout u
askign someone out shldnt be like asking a prisoner
toking to someone shldnt be liek toking to bean bear
sms-ing someone shldnt be lyk sms-ing ghost
but well. maybe he has his reasons too?
i dunno. tis doesnt involve me so i aint sure

but well! todae is yet another boring nth-to-do-day
no church.... =(
siannnnn siannnnn
but den i think of hw.. i turned off sia!
how i wish all of it jus disappear lar.
holidy dunno do homework for wad sia..
siaoo siaooo

chess competition is cancelled!!!
hah hah hah....
cos yaphan go propose to the management!
cos they not enuff funds and tym to manage sec sch one..
hehehee.. bestttt!! ^.->
but den nyp got another com cuming up
but normally they wun send invitations
hope koh dun get wind of it.
if not die oso.
*pray*~ *pray*~ *pray*

ytd did QT perfectly!
cos all not in! hahaa..
and it feels diff..
totally blew me off!!
my sabbath.. hehehe..
so now i feel great! wahhaa~
praise the Lord tat chess competition is cancelled.
jus prayed for it in e aftn and den night came the news.
kewl~

got tis holiday job... i hr $5!!
den is work from tis mth de 26th to next mth de 22th...
den my mum wans me go work..
add up totall plus commision n e long hours..
it can add up to ard $2000!!!
and u kneo how much tt is to me lar..
but! as its a expo thjing, how e hell izzit possible to get off on sunday!
i aint gonna skip service okae..
my mum wans me to work. she reli does.
all along since holiday start she oredy wan em to work
but i dun!
somemore if i work hu will go move church in my place??
and my camp??
and my ppl! my ytss!
i cant leave lidat!
and wad is money compared to God?
in e first place its incomparable.
$2000...
it IS attractive... but..
God's Love is overpowering!
sorry but well..
"$2000, bye~!"
i'll jus eat less, buy less, spend less..
but instead, love more, rest more and ev more and inetegrate more!!!
wahaha~ dun think money can attract me arh..
it aint a magnet tt can pull me away from God hor!
God's love is like gravity..
pulling onto every single person on earth
how can a magnet be compared to gravity rite?
hahaha..

peishan i update liao, last entry b4 u go perth!
better buy me smthing nice or else..
heh heh heh..
*shing!* samurai sword from my dad *shing!*
"aRgHhhHH~~~~!"
~ THE END ~

2004-11-21T22:26:00.000+08:00

cafe's gonna be strips of ReD!
chairs gonna be gReeN!
something else's gonna be vIoLet!
where's orange?!
heheXx...
Leonard is talking to me now! on e fone...
hah hah. he jus wans to be heard. =p
John 3:16! share share share~

fulong is cuming back!! haha..
i am definitely happie laRr.. i wun hide. =p

i'm eating my 2nd packet of maggie meegoreng...
yes, leonard, i mean it when i say i am hungry...! =p
so guys, pls dun starve me.. ^.-

and and and!!! cg is back in a week's time!!
wooOohoOo0o!!!! ((:
finally! heheheXx..

dunno wad else to bloGg bout..
reli hope yt can hit 10!!
all yt de! pray arh!!
prayer works wonders~
*cheErs!* ^.->

2004-11-20T16:37:00.000+08:00

Am i U1 or U5??
i stopped ppl from going to church, i argued with keli over church stuff...
i scolded peishan when she wanted to go keli's church..
i said tat God dun exist.. i scold Him..
haiyo. i did so many bad thigns lar.
but!!
i volunteered to go church myself!
*oxymoron*
i went back weeks after weeks..
a bit bhb but i must say i quite integrateable leh.
leonard sam they all jus say funny thigns in school and i went on and on non-stop bout them
i wasnt diff to tok to rite?
since i am born-talkative.
(but how cum some ppl on e other hand so diff to tok to leh??)
i was re-saved on tt day itself..
den i was on fire. den dead. den now on fire again!
hahahaha...
but hu cares i u1 or u5 lar~
u1 or u5, i am still an onfire christian okiE!!
u1 or u5, my love for Him doesnt change okie!!
wahahah~ crazy me too bored on a saturday afternoonn...
but well.. see u guys!

2004-11-20T01:32:00.000+08:00

been going to church for 3 consecutive days!! aRh!! cant believe it, 3 days just flew past liek tis..
firstly!! i miss...
LEONARD!!!
SaMmm of cosh!!
jian ming!!!
all e leaders!!
my team!!!
haha.. hadnt been seeing my team ppl as in one whole grp for vr long lo~ haha.. tis sunday is cuming! den seervice gonna start. hah.. but i miss cheegeok chan peishan huiping they all tooooo.. whahaa~ all e sec 4s..Os officiallly end for most of them le..
vbs rawks. but i aint gonna blog bout it man.. haha.. come on, dun be sad! lolx.. i wun tell u! but at least i knoe the 10 commandments by heart liao. lolx..
been worrying bout my hw laRr.. sickening hw.. finally the teacher reduced the number of compre.. they must be crazy larr if they dun.... next week's gonna fly by again.. so better buck up..
signed up for night camp!! cant resist it.. =)
ya lar.. sian liao.. my body need recharge! haha.. sabbath day.. tho my spirit is full batt. wahah~ but my body needs a break!
((:

2004-11-17T07:02:00.000+08:00

haha
its early!
supposed to go jogging
but my head is spinning....
so instead me going to meet peishan to sek chok!
wahaha~ den after tt she can cum play the larry game!
hehe... its hell early.. meeting peishan at 0725 andi am blogging now.
wonder if she'll kill me if she find out tt i am making her wait..
but yet i am blogging laRr..
hehe.. she love me too much to hate moiii anywaySss.
kk. go change now le.
see u guys at vbs!!!
((:

2004-11-16T18:17:00.000+08:00

alrighTSsss... i am blogging again
why? cos i am bored.
felt much better after taking tat gigantic pill..
haha... headache's gone and i can slp so welllll..
now suffering a much-better-than-jus-now-flu..
but stil a horrible throat here... =ytd watched tis show. weird show
bout tis ger hu was born on a night when a star appeared
jus like wad happen 2000 yrs ago,
yeap, they were toking bout Jesus.
den this ger had miraculous power laRr..
she was a vr weird ger, super introvert...
den she love animals and revived a pigeon which broke its neck
but there was a series of homicide
and its actually cult laRr.. tis stupid bunch of satan-believers
lame show. den they show whenever they kill someone
the ppl will sort of have tis ritual den will show teh sign and stuff..
den ppl die lor.
den they knoe the ger is a threat to them ma
so they wanna catch the ger..
den the mother of cos will not let it happen lar
not mother la, is her mother's sister hu watched her grow up
den they even show the temptation sia
the stupid leader of the cult go dare the ger
say wad if she reli believe in GoD den jump down tt building
den he force her stand at the top of the building.
den he keep tmpting her
den the ger vr li hai sia
i thot she will say wad dun put ur LoRd ur GoD to the test
but she said..
"after you,"
wah.. i was like so amazed by her answer laRr..
den the leader vr angry.. almost pushed her down
den suddenly hug her and say sorry
haha.. siao siao one.
den the mother cum catch her when she was at the dentist of the devil cult
den run run den thot wil die cos they missed teh train.
but den tis woman put the umbrella in between teh door and the door open and they went in
den the woman say to e lil ger,"after you."
den the door close they look outside,
the woman is gone.
hehee.. must be an angel!
den got once the mother almost die oso is a guy save her den teh guy next sec disappear le.
den vr scary sia
the door close the devilish guy chasing them suddenly becum a devil,
and hit the door til the glass broke lar
haiyo..
den in the end of cos the ger will win lar
cos a grp of sisters were praying for them
den haiyah, prayers work wonders ma!
den they save lo~
ehhehehee...
sounds like exorcist huh?
i dun wan watch one.. but hor..
ytd night i rei headache den cant slp
den no other show oso..
i jus knoe tat devil sux laRr.
he shld jus go eat shit and die
he is good at tempting
but GoD is better! cos He nv gives us anything we cant handle
watchign tt show makes me hate devil to e core laRr..
he sux real big tym
wad can he be good at?
since in e end he still have to listen to God
jus a puny little piece of.. wadever u guys think laRr.
haha.. but nstead!
GoD is great.
no one compares to Him!
yea

yea
yea
yea
yea
yea

2004-11-16T13:42:00.000+08:00

DiaRy oF a GoD-Lover who is SicK ((:
hahaha.. lame la lame.. but i am truely terribly horribly sick..
my voice is gone!!
my throat hurts like siao...
cough til my stomach muscle cracking up liao laRr...
cough til my throat gonna shrink le..
the worst thing is...
wipe my nose til the part between my mouth and nose vr vr painful...
i think the skin's gonna peel and drop off or smthign...
argh..
my nose probaby enlarged wif all e sneezing and rubbing..
my throat is itching..
it is itching for a beating man! =p
how amazed izzit tt i suddenly figured out tt...
the pill is too big to be swallowed!
only when i have placed it in my mouth...
shucks!
but i closed my eyes real tight and squeezed it down my pathetic throat..
arh.. and it went down..
woohoo~ amazing..
another vr vr bad thign is...
i cant sleep at night!
my head feels so so so terrible.
it is heavy
it is light
it hurts!
arh... til i cant slp!
ended up watching tv and reading tuesays with morrie til 6+...
and so bad tt when leonard sms me i oso dunno
til jianming call den i realise got conference...
haiyoOooo...
oh well.. tml is vbs!!
and i am looking forward to it totally.. hehe
it will heal me! whahaha~
isnt it horrible?
to be not able to sing during praise and worship..
argh~!
another thign!
i am looking forward to shifting the new church.
hehehee... kekeke..
ciaoZ!

2004-11-15T18:57:00.000+08:00

One very special moment,
can turn a destiny,
And what some would say,
could never change,
has changed for you and me,

Cause it's all,
It's all in the way,
you look through your eyes,
and when all is said and done,
All of the fear and all of the lies are,
not hard to overcome,
It's all in the way you look at it,
that makes you strong.....

nice song rite? one special moment when we placed our hands on our hearts and got saved. tis moment can change our destiny, wont it? (: some say we will nv change, our disgusting life will nv change, our attitude wun change... but cos of Christ, it has changed for u and me!
its ALL in e way u look thru ur eyes and say and wad u do. fears and lies... they are not hard to overcome! many times when u think of it in a more positive way bout the situation u are caught in, it becums a totally different thing, things mights jus seem much easier! and when u think of conquering instead of running away, u becum a stronger person. cos u fight e battle wif faith and GoD alongside u. a different way of looking at things can indeed make u strong....
was lying on bad slping and jus woke up when i heard tis song playing from my com.. and i was so err wad shld i say.. all e troubles and fears and problems all my frens are facing right now which i knoe of starts to run thru my mind. and i jus wanna share their burden. but many a times there isnt much i can do. which is quite sad. but nvm! i'll pray for them. hehe... ^.-*

2004-11-15T10:58:00.001+08:00

cant believe i went jogging. lolx..
can u believe it? i went jogging lor. woohoo.. =)
wad a feat.
we ran round e yishun pond. haha.. (the real name is yishun pond sia)
me and shan ran bout 1-2 rounds.
vic vr qiang sia. ran 4 rounds. rendar oso nto bad. ran 3 rounds.
vr qiang sia. me and shan there look at pond, stretch more den run.
i went there to let em luff at moi voice?
no laRr... they dun treat me so bad de.
jus tt rendar keep thinking tt i am peishan when its over e fone. =p
had headache over wad to wear sia.
but in e end found smthing suitable.
sports shoe.. haha.. a bit siao siao liao tt shoe.
2 yrs no wear le ma. >.<'' den suppose to meet at 0630 de. but hor... i woke up at 618. lolx.. if ps nv call i think i wun even wake up. den victor wake up at 628. means rendar oso cos he giv morning call den die lor. everyone late. lolx... escept peishan! earli bird sia.. so unexpected!!! =X den waited for rendar lolx... he late sia. den we went jogging lo~ den after tt all tired sleepy came to my hse to drink water. but dar and vic vr funny. lolx. as to why i shant say.
nothing good to say, dun say! ((:
den went for wad i have been looking forward to!!! heh heh...
BREAKFAST!!!
i ate ban mian laRr... they all pangseh all eat porridge.
haha no lar..
fei jgeok?
lei sek si?
hunsup jhi?
wahhahaa... all dunno how to reli pronounce lar.
spelt it according to wad it sounds lyk in my memory
den tok like siao over final fantasy...
haiya... now jus reached home den blog le.. vr tired sia~
even go sch i oso nv wake up so early =p
looking forward to vbs and new church!
but vbs wear wad.. sialah...
aha. hu cares!
everythings changed.. .. ..

2004-11-15T01:43:00.000+08:00

g.R.o.W is BACK!!!
^.-
hehehe.. yea. no lar. the colors are back again.
great to be able to have dinner wif dar and vic again!!
cos last tym good fren becum siannn siannn de r/s.
den now we are back! muahahaha...
cant believe we are going jogging tml laRr...
i mean.. jiayi?! jogging?! how can?!
haha. yar lo.. i wld rather fail den take napfa test.
but well.. tis tym at least is run for fun de ma
nice to jog once in a red moon laRr..
cant find sports shoe, cant find keys.
haha... forget it. tml den worry.
0630 at my block!! haha..
kewl man.. even go sch i oso nv so early wake up de sia..
conquer! =D

2004-11-12T16:47:00.000+08:00

ok. thrid entry le.
firstly is annuoncement. CINDY got a BLOGGG... go check it out ok! its in my links.
ok. now the main thing!
i've got lots of frens hu are facing many problems lately.. esp wif r/s prob. why get so upset over guys?! haiya... no choice la.. r/s such stuff cannot be explained. they are living so unhappily, so upset everyday and so depressed wheever they think bout tat someone. why? if tat person love u he/she wun giv u sadness more den happiness yar?
i reli reli hope tat these ppl will get saved. cos GoD will get em out of misery! i am vr sure of tat. vr vr vr sure. cos i have seen so many ppl getting changed after they were saved.
and 2nd grp of ppl. ppl who are unsure of themselves. of their future. totally sick of their current life, wanting somehting out of it. ur life sucks now? u dun lyk urself, low self esteem? u feel tat even if u die right now it doesnt matter and tt life is reli meaningless and no purpose? den cum church! cos u need it. liek me last tym oso like tt. terrible me. so sick of life. totally bored. but once i go church, everything change le. i becum soooo happy and life was meaningful. u nv knoe unless u try~
and tis is wad Roy told us durign prayer meeting which i think ppl shld get to knoe. he was once a gangster and his life used to be in a mess. yar. so if u are like him, cum church~~~ cos seriously, many ppl in tis world, ard us, are like tt. they get involved in so many trouble, in and out of sch, they join gangs, they fight. but i dun think any of em liek wad they are doing. they might tink its cool but it doesnt last. they might think tt they enjoy it but as it goes on they surely think tt its boring and sickening de lar. and one thing for sure, they've got a messed up life. and they need Jesus. i reli reli hope they will be saved. and more RoySss will appear. lolx... crapp..
i dunno why i blogged bout tis. i think its quite lame. and stupid. but den i type so many things liao i oso cant bear to delete away leh. haiya. wadever. lame lame lor~ haha.. nonetheless...

"I stiLL rAwKkkSssSs!!!!"

2004-11-12T14:33:00.000+08:00

after toking to yanghui.. i reli wanna tell tis to some ppl out there.
there are so many ppl who need GoD. He is knocking teh door, but many refused to open it and invite Him in. wads so difficult?
some ppl dunno, but they will cum to knoe it one day. but some ppl knoe, they hear and understand but they ignored Him. but GoD is great. GoD is kind. more importantly, GoD loves us more than anybody else. He loves us more than we can ever imagine. He loves us more than we love ourselves. His love is everlasting. and tis includes every single person on tis earth. even those who ignored Him when He knocked on their door! ignoring Him does not change His everlasting love for us. it NeVeR will.
even when u stop loving Him, He never stop loving u. why do i say that? cos i knoe. i understand. i went thru it all. i witnessed it. i stopped believing Him. i even insulted Him. i hated Him. i spoke bad of Him. i even stopped other ppl from loving Him. but He still love me. He still believed me. and he still has hope on me. i went to Him. and He accepted and re-welcomed me wif open arms. and now i am backto fight for Him. in His Army. living for Him!
who can be so great tat He stil love us tho we dun? any of ur fren will do tt? i am sure none are going to be so magnanimous. will ur fren die for u? i dun think so. but Jesus says yes to all tt. He can do anythign for us. He died for us. wad more can we do? loving Him is the most basic thing we can do for Him!
so ppl out there. love Him! believe in Him. i believe He has helped u b4. He has helped u in so many ways imaginable. think hard. hasnt he helped u in so many wonderful ways? He has. He has faith in u and why not teh other way round? u ought to have Faith in Him! even now, He does not give up on u. He is jus waiting for u to talk to Him. right now. why do u let other thigns stop u from loving Him? nothing stops Him from loving us! not even death.
i love Him and nothing's gonna change tat. and not only do i love Him, i wanna serve Him. yes,i am. betcha i will! and i will do my best for Him. wad 'bout you?

2004-11-12T14:03:00.000+08:00

overnight prayer meeting rawks..
haha i rawk too. no lar. i suxx big tym! for being so lousy..
tis whole week got 4 days of study camp. and i pon-ed 3 days!!!
tats liek crazy lar~
monday no go tuesday go wednesday no go friday oso no go...
but after the long break bet teacher oso wun bother le la when school reopen.
i'll just pray tat they wun, anyway. ^.-
the outing was a failure. tats why i sux.
sam was sick, she left it in my hands.
and haha! wad did i do? i blew it.
wendy was missing in action. peishan went away, she wasnt free.. lynette got meeting and chewting i dunno wad..
but in e end, wendy appeared and lynette skip her meeting. and ct was wif her. but peishan has got art to do. and jus when i was thinking of meeting them, DaMnn.
my mum. gib me attitude since morning. shucks..
den started tis row wif her larr.. she got pissed off and stuff..
and of cos i got real pissed. and i mean REAL pissed.
and wendy was wif some other ppl, peishan was wif other ppl too and ct was wif lyn.
3 separate grps. and poor me at hoem sms-ing tons of ppl.
argh.. rubbish rubbish rubbish. absolute Rubbish wif capital "R"!
den my mum started to cook. and den she insisted tat i was e one hu wanted to eat and so she cook. when the toot did i say i wan to?
i would rather savour my honey stars...
argh.. nvm. in e end, teh whole outing was ruined.
its my fault. its ALL my fault. damn it.
but nvm! i decided to go out tml. wif them. shopping!!!
haha.. relax guys.
everything's alright~ i've got Jesus wif me!

2004-11-11T13:43:00.000+08:00

all those problems werent problems at all laRr! haha.. i am more than a conqueror!! and i conquered my worries bout overnight prayer meeting. heh heh heh... and it went kinda smoothly and well. heh =p
but, i didnt do exactly well, but i didnt blunder up any serious stuff except tat i forgot to add in weicheng's name in e attendence list.. bleahxx.. *slap myself* but i added it in in e end.. i guess my mind was too into yt ppl.. haha.. but i didnt miss weicheng out!! i still talked to him and everything went alright. the whole thing just went alright lo....
at first was reli scared tat i had to sort of lead e yt ppl. but i jus knoe tat GoD is wif me!! and i reli learnt a lot and i mean hell lots from joanne and roy. hehe.. it was a wonderful chance to learn tis kinda stuff..
reli excited bout the new church!! esp during the leaders meeting. haha. i seriously wanted to join everything. i wanted reception, the arhive thingy, and cafe and lights! i love all of them. thot of joining cafe reception and archiv but i cant! cos i am already in archive and reception. reception sure vr vr fun de!!! see ppl walk into the glass wall.. heh heh heh.. =p and watching videos oso vr fun. haha.. sit at reception counter watch videos huh? sounds cool! lolx.. and well, Leonard has great plans for me huh? lolx... so i shall be satisfied wif e 2 wonderful ministries i have! ((: i am REAL excited i tell u!
and the team re org!! hahahaha.. so great to knoe tt Leonard get promoted le! haha.. tho title doesnt matter, i still feel glad for him. cos he deserve it. cos he is a great leader!! no one will disagree wif me de laRr... (: and we are joining wif Joanne's team!! yoohoo!! haha.. Cg huiling all.. haha... grreat grrreeattt Great wif a capital "G"!!! (((((:
its nice.. overnight prayer meeting raWkSs.. didnt slp for the whole night, the night jus flew past so fast wor.. too bad e sec 4s cant join us! but nvm~ haha.. Os are important too. hope next yr Os tt tym no big stuff happening in new church!! ^.- now is the next day deepavali le and its 1359 now. and i still havent slp! infact jus now went to sentosa wif peishan and nigel after the meeting.. hehehe... we siao le. den teh sad thing is we ate mac breakfast smelling dog shit. cos lucky me stepped on one. *eEeWww* its stinks ok. i had to use my hand and serviettes to wipe it off! and i ended up using yakult straw to dig out from those finer parts.. gross right?! but no choice ma.. too smelly le..
sentosa rawks! the palawan beach is better than siloso! cos the water is clear! tho not as clear as hawaii de, but i think its e cclearest in s'pore le. haha.. but the water inside vr amazing.. maybe cos its clear, we saw many small lil' fishes swimming in big grps!! reminds me of my team. ahha. always moving towards the same direction, united and wif a common destination. cos they reli swim together in e same direction altho there are many of them.
den peishan and nainai saw fish jumping out of the water and going back in again! aint it awesome? such a view in s'pore! haha.. we reach there real early, at ard 8...
and left at ard 11. ahha.. i was slping on e beach. so hot. den we played frisbee too! i learnt to throw it in a much better way. (:
den we went to rot in the monorail train. we ended up slping in it. lolx.. den we decided to leave le cos we deflated liao and we slept again in e bus 855 on e way home from harbour front. cool~ ahha.. den we went home, TIRED but HappIee.. haha. =)
i dun plan to slp lar.. cos once i slp i dun wanna get up le. lolx.. lata still got to attend a tooopid bday celebration... at night.. so might as well dun slp since i have to like get up and i hate tt feeling.. so i guess i'll die in cls tml. hu cares. its e last day anyway!!

2004-11-10T01:33:00.000+08:00

now the first prob is... hu can pei wo go church?! well, not a big prob. if reli cant find anyone i shall fly there myself. hhee.. (:
next is that leo and all e leaders cant go for the OPM... argh... so sad! and i have tis great responsibility which i am not confident of taking up. but! for GoD i shall do it. i can do all things thru Christ hu strengthens me! hehehe... yesh. i believe in that. cos when i was reli worried jus now i still somehow felt peace in my heart i knoe that everything's going to be alright lar~ hehe..
ok. next question. why am i blogging tho i am so no tym and its oredy 0218 in e morning and i am still rushing my e math hw? well, cos i believe that by blogging my mind gets a clearer picture of wad i wanna do and i somehow can think more properly as i organise wad i wanna do and put em down in words in moi blog! haha.. yea. bloGg raWkkks...
tml our team is joining up wif roy's team. cool~ haha... so sad cant pray wif my great leaders lar.. but nvm. we are from e same church anyway! got lots of peeps on e integration and EV list tt we got to pray for. gotta pray hard!
its sure a challenge lar. cos now so late le. think i'll slp at ard 4 todae. den 2 hrs of slp gotta last me til thursday mornign.. hehee.. loveee this kind of challenge. den thursday... hu knoes wad i wanna do hor?? hehee...
yea.. now feel much better and more faith that i can do it tml le. hehe.. yesh. trust in e LoRD!! and joy of the LoRd is our energy. hehe.. yes. i shall learn to live by GoD's everlasting and never-ending energy. hehee.. i wun get K.O-ed tml! i wun!!

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